she said i cant leave the house except for work or school and im not allowed to call anybody or talk on the internet for months. if i go home. thats the only conditions and she is not changing her mind. heaven if that happens i swear i will end up insane. you cant do that to somebody. i wall go crazy. i already got mad and made myself throw up and ( Read more... )

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hey heaven. i havent been to this journal in a while. anyway i miss u. hope i get to go visit you soon. but gilbert is still here and you know how he is...anyway i havent really like talked to you in a long time. so we need to just hang out and talk. i have that necklace and if i remember when i get to see you ...i will bring it... hopefully i ( Read more... )

hey love. hows life? omg i cant wait to see your baby boy!! tell him to hurry up and come out!!! :) anyway what else has been going on besides being pregnant? i miss you so much. i miss the days when we would sleep on the trampoline and then nights we would stay up forever and walk to osco early in the morning. yea...there were some bad things ( Read more... )

yea farron told me whats going on. he said its about all the drama and all thats stuff. but okay...so brody still isnt talking to me. . . but i dont know what to do about that one. i know hes mad at me because i got into a fight with seyrra...but i only got into the fight with seyrra because i hate her...i only hate her because she is with brody ( Read more... )

so yea farron hasnt talked to me in over a week and he wont tell me what the fuck i did wrong! so instead of going to brians yesterday i came home so i could get my mom to take me to susies to talk to farron about this and he wont answer my messages or texts or anything and ive been crying at least once everyday since he stopped talking to me.

so um im having a problem...sort of.... so lately me and brian have been talking about having sex. and i actually really want to...but im scared. like nervous cuz im a virgin and idk....ahhhh....

okay so yea we really need to hang out. like you have no idea how much i miss you. and i wanna see your tummy. and i still cant believe you are going to be a mommy! :) its amazing. i cant wait. you are going to be the most perfect mommy in the world. im so fricken excited. but everything has been insanely confusing lately so its been hard to find a ( Read more... )

okay so idk ... see this girl keeps texting brian. constantly. her name is kara. shes really preppy and a little cute blonde girl. and you know me so of course i get all weird and pissed off and jealous lol. but i tried not to complain about it becuase i trust him. so anyway we were on the phone one night and he tells me that he went to her house ( Read more... )

HEY BEAUTIFUL! whats up? how are you doing? i miss you! we need to hang out soon. im at susies...eventhough susie is not here lol cuz shes going there :) thats weird anyway i love you! and miss you!

SO...im going to get drunk and we are going to have sex? so where is leif in all of this? is he okay with it?