instead of beating myself up trying to figure myself out, i'm going to let go. instead of blaming other people and things from my past, i'm going to blame myself. it's my responsibility to make myself happy and nobody else's. thing that have happened to me havent made it so bad i can't have or deserve happiness. i dont have a problem using the word ( Read more... )

i've been doing pretty damn good for the last month. the counselor has helped a lot as far as helping me identify anxiety and what it is. i still have problems dealing with it, but at least i can identify it and i know i'm not crazy. i'm different, for sure, but it's not a bad thing ( Read more... )

There's a party for Robin's birthday this FRIDAY April 30th!
Johnny Cheeseburger & the Cumbunnies and Half-Sac are going to play.

It's at her house. In the evening, whenever. BYOB. Music probably wont happen til about 9:00. If you need the address ask me.

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i do NOT want to go to the dentist right now...

an ex-marine profectionist father and 9 years of being strict conservative baptist will make a guy feel really guilty for feeling good about himself.

i dont write on here as much when i'm in a good mood. i wouldnt want to go back through this someday and not see a post from when i'm feeling okay about things.

i think i'm going to be alright. definitely more myself lately. tomorrow i see the dentist, the counselor again (it was *weird* the first time), and an eye doctor. maybe i'll get some awesome glasses and have less weirdness at work or at the grocery store or at other places where i'm looking at things way too closely for way too long ( Read more... )

i'm about to go talk to a counselor for the first time in my life. i probably should have done this 15 years ago. but something tells me it wouldnt have changed much. something tells me i'll still wake up crying tomorrow. and not know how to deal with people or trust them or believe that they believe me and arent trying to hurt me all the time.

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Havin a birthday party at my house on Saturday Dec 19th! If you're reading this, i'm sure you're invited. We'll be playing music, video games, having some cocktails.

Maybe it will snow like last year and we can have another showshoe party!

Come over at like 8 or whenever.