having an anxiety attack atm.. been going for a few hours since my mom fucked up my hair dye--dying the parts i didn't want her to and LYING about it. and then i attempted to trim my bands? HA. AHAHA. i'm a fuckwit.

so then i watched RoveLA and omg that was a hoot--i was ROLLING.

and not my anxiety is back. yay. and i have to go to sleep cause ( Read more... )

Cyeah i signed up.. hope i can do it...


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 Kinda?

Well no, I am, i've just been rather "bleh" towards everything lately--as is the usual i guess if my last posts have anything to say about it. I'm trying to work hard in my 2 college dance classes, and I also added in 2 other classes at my studio just to supplement and keep me moving.

I joined Keisha's "Mission 2Piece" so i can maybe motivate ( Read more... )

 I don't even know how i feel anymore.. all I seem to do lately is hyperventilate, get anxiety attacks and cry. I've felt so alone, no one to talk to IRL or Online and it adds up, you know? Writing scares the shit out of me, i'm terrified to open a fucking word doc because my ideas mock me. I've been stuck in this glass room filed with fog and it's ( Read more... )

 and please put me back together again...

I had my first intake appointment at the mental health clinic today--seemed to go well. I can never tell, tho, with these kinds of people. My next appointment is on tuesday... she asked me a lot of questions--there was crying, admission of guilt, fear, loathing... every feel ever. it was.. idek how i felt... ( Read more... )

so a friend, well now ex friend, got pissed at me and called me a sociopath because i didn't want a fucking song she was sending me. and then she kept saying that i was playing "the victim" and always "making excuses" because i didn't say "i'm sorry" right away--or in a way she understood it. apparently i don't have "empathy" or "basic kindness".

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David slumped down in front of the vanity in his dressing room and glared at his reflection, noting the tears pouring down the stranger’s face. A shock of red hair, too-thin body, gaudy makeup on his face.

Who was this man?

Certainly not the same boy from Brixton. What had happened to David Jones? Was he in there somewhere, screaming for freedom ( Read more... )

Been listening to 1.Outside, in my top 3 fave Bowie albums of all time--hard to choose, tho, eh? 30 albums and whatnot to choose from.

If you know nothing of the "Nathan Adler Diaries" i suggest you look into the demented mind that David was into in 1995.

it was a concept album--called: "The Art-Ritual Murder of Baby Grace Blue: A non-linear Gothic ( Read more... )

“Alright, guys…let’s take a ten.” Adam called to the group as he grabbed his water bottle before sitting down on the steps upstage. He stole a glance at the retreating dancers, smirking as he caught the eye of one of them.

Someone cleared their throat, pulling his attention to find Tommy scooting in next to him. “Rumor has it…”

“Singing Adele, Tommy ( Read more... )

Regarding the end of Ziggy Stardust in 1973--IE Bowie's first 'Retirement':

There were different views and different explanations of Bowie's retirement. To some, it was a strategy of Byzantine cunning. Bowie's manager, it later emerged had his own reasons for withdrawing his star product. There were complicated discussions with a record label and a ( Read more... )