Am I the most attractive guy in the world, no. Nor am I the most cherismatic, but I'll always do my best for you, the make you laugh when you're Sad, to give you a hug, and hold you if you need it, to listen and give you advice, I'll be Loyal, I swear to never, ever cheat on you, to love you for who you are, be completely honest with you, I won't ( Read more... )

I've been doing some serious reflecting today, not in a Depressed way, just looking back, and I figured out, I love women, everything about them, even the crap that pisses me off, but I always push them away, because i'm afraid of being hurt, and though it's been almost 2 years since my heart was vaporized, nothing's healed, and I'm even more on ( Read more... )

You know, it's funny, people have mistaken me giving up on finding love with giving up on life, I haven't given up on my life, I'm 29, big fat hairy deal, I have a long way to go, it just sucks that I'm going to travel that road by myself, Yes God is with me, and he always has been/will be, but it'd be nice to have a woman to be with, I realized ( Read more... )

Man, I tell you, it's getting more and more cemented within me, that I'll never know what it's like to truly be loved by a woman, there is no "Ms, right" out there for me, My heart was Vaporized by the only woman I've ever known, there's nothing to give, it kills me, everyday i see Eharmony, Match.com etc. commercials, and I ache knowing that I'll ( Read more... )

Well, been living on my own for 3 months now, it's ok, lonley sometimes, I used to enjoy the solitude, but I long for the woman who God has for me, all this time by myself has worn me to nothing as far as my personal life, God has provided everything for me except this one thing, That used to bring me down, now I look at it in a positive light, ( Read more... )

Wow, I just looked back through my Myspace over the last 4 years, and I can't believe all the missed opportinities I've had, to be happy, to spend more time with friends, I can't believe what a loser I am/have been, How did I let myself go down that road?, it's crazy, what's even more sad is, now I'm 29 and have no Idea how to fix this, what's just ( Read more... )

Every time I see you, I want to tell you how beautiful you look, just to see you smile makes my day, even with other women all around, you're the only one I can even look at, when you walk, my eyes stay glued to only you, but I'm scared to even say hello, I want to get to know you, ask you out, but I can't get the words past my lips, whatever, I'll ( Read more... )

Why is it women complain that there are no good guys left in e world, there are plenty of us around, but you guys keep going out with assholes who mistreat you, I'm not gonna be that guy, but damn it, wise up, those guys don't care one bit about you, and when they've used you up, they'll just move on to the next chick who'll buy into their bullshit ( Read more... )

My last update was May of 2007, and I could write a book on all the stuff that's happened since, Let's just say Sarah turned out to be a liar who couldn't keep her legs shut, I got kicked out of the band from March 2007-Sept 2008 was literally the worst time of my life as far as friendships went, I almost lost all of them, and had to fight like ( Read more... )

Well, I've decided to take a little "break" from drumming, I'm on my second week, it's been good, I realized how much I missed it, but it also helped me get my priorities together, I asked Sarah to marry me, she said yes, so sometime in the near future we'll have a wedding, some people have said it's too fast, but she is my best freind and was ( Read more... )