He smiled at me today for the first time in weeks. Maybe tomorrow we'll speak about nothing. Just utterances of what happened in Peterson's class. I watch him flirt with that other girl the next row over. But not to worry, I'll be with him yet, he's perfect for me ( Read more... )

I apologize for the large amount of weepy, whiny, and dramatic entries lately. Damn seasonal depression. I'm not myself and my therapist told me to write my emoations down so I don't bury them and have to explosively release them. Helps me feel better. Thanks for putting up with my bullshit and leaving those comments. I love you guys. Pray that ( Read more... )

I can't take it anymore. I hate being so sad all the time. I actually forget what real happiness feels like. I can't seem to make anything go right. I sit by myself all day. No one really talks to me anymore. I havn't spoken with my best friend in a week, maybe more. And when I try to talk to her or acknowledge her in the hallways I get ( Read more... )

I havn't had a day like this in a long time. It sucked so bad. Everything has been getting to me and I just have to smile and nodd like it all okay. My family sucks. My brother is constantly doing things that aggravate the living hell out of me like listening to his music with the volume all the way up and then singing even louder to it. And in ( Read more... )

this week was crap but I feel a lot better. I had a convorsation with Huff Thursday that just made me feel so much better and made me realize that everything was gonna be okay. I felt like the whole world was mad at me when it was really just one girl, I guess she just has that affect on people. I was so bad the other night when I wrote my last ( Read more... )

I can't even begin to explain how I feel right now. I never in my entire life have felt so alone. I've been abandoned by what feels like everyone. Like a cult following, they are gone. And the few that are still here I can't help but wait until they decide to turn too as terrible as that may sound. Even my best friend seems to have turned. I ( Read more... )

It's been quite some time since my last update I know. Actually I don't know how many people still keep up with this since myspace has swept the nation. Oh well fuck em I'll update anyways just for YOU ( Read more... )

Wow. I can't believe it's actually Christmas Eve already. I feel like summer just ended.  I am very happy to report that I'm happy on Christams Eve. I am usually lonley and depressed and all that crap this time of year. But I'm actually okay.  I'm a little upset that I have to go to work tonight but Cait told me that we usually get out early on ( Read more... )

I had an awesome day today well until I went home at least. Me and Mary Beth and Sean got to hang out. We went to the diner and then came home and took a nap, and made shadow puppets, and laughed and took pictures, it was just fun.  But of couse I left my cell phone in the car and everyone and their mother tried to call me.  Of course when my ( Read more... )

Well it is officially the week of christmas. well whoop de frickin do. Every one is really psyched but I frankly dont care.  I just like not having to do any work because the teachers know we'll just forget it over break.  Aqua is really pissing me off though. He gave us a quiz today and half the shit on it we learned after we took the quiz. But I ( Read more... )