yep. i have nothing to say other than when i tried, it wasnt enough. when i asked, i was lied to. what's done is done, what's been said has been said, and im just gonna keep my fucking mouth shut til my teeth fall out.

great.

not going to be as long of a post as the other day ( Read more... )

i had a pretty heart breaking day, after a pretty wonderful night. it was shitty and i cried most of the time, and as good as it felt to really weep over something i rarely allow myself to admit, it also scared me. i live alone. i have been single since the day i became interested in boys, i have seen and felt heartbreak and love, and thats all ( Read more... )

i got a job. i think i love it ( Read more... )

update.... not gonna be a lesbian. Not because I can't, but because I don't have much of a social life and the problem is that without a life, I can't meet anyone. Therefore, that is why I'm single. I don't get out much, I never meet any new people, and stupidly fall for friends because there's no one new in my life. So... whatever ( Read more... )

yesterday i was thinking about being a lesbian. i mean, i'm already half way there. i like girls, find them attractive and fun to be around. i've done things with girls (but never fucked one), and i even dated a girl for a little while... but when it comes down to it i dont think i am every going to fully be a lesbian. im getting ahead of myself ( Read more... )

i dont have anything new to write about or say. i wish i did.

basically im sitting here pissed off because my sister and mom couldnt fucking wait 1 minute for me to get home so we could all go to the dispensery together. whatever. if i really am quitting weed tomorrow, it shouldnt matter. but now i get to sit here, sober, let down, and just in a funk. i woke up at 530 this morning and couldnt go back to sleep ( Read more... )

according my to parents, im not worth having friends because im a shitty person. thanks, mom and dad.

god i wish i was suicidal.

i dont even know where things started to go wrong, why or when my life became this absurd joke that i have to wake up to and endure each day. i'm simply feeling sorry for myself, i know that. but feeling alone when you are alone has to be the worst mental state, at least it is to me. the strangest things make me cry, a random image provokes ( Read more... )