so i officially actually like being at school... notice i didn't say "in class" or some other bullshit like that... but being at home makes me want to be there... i fucking hate my homelife... and 3 younger siblings..ugh i can't deal with all that stress plus SATs on Jan. 22nd and trying to get over having this stupid virus that made me pass out ( Read more... )

so today i did: nothing. i was forced to go to church and then alycia dragged me to best buy and target and some other stores by the willowbrook mall... i got straylight run's new cd/its ok... the new U2 cd.that fucking kicks ass...the new The Used cd/ its eh.good.....and pete yorn's 1st cd which i had then lost so i re-bought it... i love that ( Read more... )

blah. i was woken up at 7:30 am...jebus fucking christ..... food is almost done so i'm going to eat... then more sleep... yay...

ugh holidays... i want to go to places where they don't say "merry christmas" - like public schools and scream "hey mr athiest wanna-be: MERRY FUCKING CHRISTMAS" this country so wrapped-around being "politically correct" i want to fucking kill... and there's not even any fucking snow... bush is a commie... my theory is that he fucking controls the ( Read more... )

blah. mi familia is going down to Cape May this weekend so i went to school, drove home (took the lonnnng way) and packed my clothes and stuff into my small suitcase... it's just like 2 days worth of clothes, undies, ect... my sisters packed like 2 medium sized suitcases EACH and i'm like 'what the fuck - you don't need that much shit.' lol... they ( Read more... )

woo... today (ok tuesday 12/7) was my junior ring day... yea for all you in public school or are guys this is going sound odd ( Read more... )

they really do... except for aneel cos he listened to me complain ( Read more... )

i don't know where dave and i are...in our 'relationship'... i hate being this confused ( Read more... )

forget all that crap i posted yesterday.
i realized i was just being stupid and retarded about dave and i. i do love him... a whole lot... more then i think i've ever loved anyone else and he made me realize that... i don't know if he knows that... i think he's mad at me or something... idk but i still love him and i don't care who knows.

i think there are so many reasons as to why i've been basically so stupid and confused lately. i was on the bus to manhattan today, just thinking of dave and i and i realized that i do NOT love him... at all. but that's not wrong... see we've only been "a couple" for like 3 weeks and already he's told me he loves me... that's way too much to deal ( Read more... )