figured out what it is
never moving ahead
its what clouds my vision
so i guess what im asking
is for clarity

i have been so complacent
that now i am angry

on my own

consider it a privlage to be such a failure
your second chance might never have come

oprah and Dr.phil are the same person!
it makes so much sense now
the Anti-christ does have two heads!
one of a charming black woman who "helps" others..
the other of a ..yeah its Dr. Phil

im soooo smart!

see now I confirm the reality of this in all of it's splendor...
there is much difficulty ahead in the impossible to understand actions I must take..
but beyond comprehension..beyond rationalization..beyond difficulty or ease..
is a place i must get to...and stay..wrapped up in such a warm blanket...
and sitting there where I feel my very essence ( Read more... )

flourescent lights really bother me ( Read more... )

i am not in a great mood this evening and i really dont feel like being in one

i can criticize myself, and it does me know good, except reaffirm the fact that i am self-aware.
and just maybe i will motivate myself into being more than i am.

havent updated in years, but oh well

to be honest all the things that should be a problem are not even remotely on my mind.

it is well with my soul,, it is well

while walking in the cold toward the doors of williams dormatory i pondered this thought: am i doomed to spend the rest of my creative life here? in this cell with unhappy walls and uncharming persona, i feel like its perfect because i am only a shell lately, havent actually done anything remotely expressive in the last year with the exception of ( Read more... )

my exgf wants to be in my life. i dont want her in it, i dont want to have anything to do with her. everything i do in my head is symbollic of something else, she in my mind symbolizes the person i used to be, a scared little boy, "little clint" as it were. someone afraid to screw up, afraid to make people mad, afraid to really live life for what ( Read more... )