I find it hard to get back on this old thing, but I really do treasure it. Nostalgia is heavy ( Read more... )

Getting older is sad.

Dear Livejournal ( Read more... )

Reading my old posts is too hard for me, I can't make myself do it. I like myself way more now! I miss all of my beautiful friends that are now spread across the country. I am more broke than I have ever been, its keeping me up. His eye is on the Patrick. I feel like I peaked spiritually at 16 or 17 after getting dumped by my first real girlfriend ( Read more... )

I have been wasting my life lately, watching Japanese cartoons, reading harry potter. It gets dark here by about 4:30, that's been pretty depressing. I really wish I were a fall/winter person but I don't think I am, I need the sun. It's still such a long time til spring! This might very well be my last autumn in the pacific northwest ( Read more... )

This is for Alec, a man after my own heart ( Read more... )

I wrote  27 pages last night from 11 pm to 8:30 am, what a man! I think this is the craziest thing I've ever done. Mi vida loca ( Read more... )

can't sleep, I hate this!

Little Word, Little White Bird
(an excerpt)
Carl Sandburg

And it won't help any, it won't get us anywhere,
it won't wipe away what has been
nor hold off what is to be,
if you hear me saying
love is a little white bird
and the flight of it so fast
you can't see it
and you know it's there
only by the faint whirr of its wings
and the hush song coming so low to ( Read more... )

Insomnia has dominated my life, robbing me of sleep and energy; in it everything sank. It's 5:30 am and I am not tired, I can't sleep at all. Watching the sun rise shouldn't make my stomach hurt, I have class at 11 am and I don't know how I'm gonna make it. I hate that I cant participate in such an essential part of life. Everyone else is asleep ( Read more... )