I've kept everything bottled up inside yet i cant do it anymore.... My heart and soul have taken the full damage for this action. I feel like my heart is turning from a warm flame into the cold ice block I was trying to avoid. My soul feels alone striken by hatred and sadness. My thoughts are confused I dont have a clear everything is jumbled up ( Read more... )

Since today I got a ride from an old kind of friend from a class I had with her a month 1/2 ago it was a schock but hey I got out of the sun so thats a plus. Things change quickly really. I found myself in a mental net so to speak. I find myself only sitting back and watching everything around me changing and I do nothing to stop it. So it seems ( Read more... )

Thoughts of confusion ( Read more... )

that my almost two year relationship is over in a flash yet I will stay friends with her no matter what its hard to bring the truth to my mind. It seems like I am trying to keep back the emotions which I am doing a good job of it but my thoughts are another thing which I havent been able to control. Many would probably expect me to revert into a ( Read more... )

I have found everything is such a fake. Everyone wants to be heard but they wont listen to anyone else. I found myself always listening to people and they never return the respect. I am sick of everything around me. Sick of the shit i deal with from family who i dont really give a crap about since i am not like them anymore

The past brings us.... What memories of past emotions come back rushing into our minds with such ease. I find myself suddenly tossed back into the past yet that is somewhere that i cant be in since i have my whole future ahead of me but its not easy to forget the past when it felt so good and has a hold on you that makes everything seem unreal and ( Read more... )

I have dealt with a lot of things in my time and I have always recovered. Yet now it seems like there is no way for me to get up from this torture of the mind so to speak. I have found myself more and more in my mind, thoughts running through me with lighting speed. So much stress and pressure to succeed in my higher learning...has finally done its ( Read more... )

Many have said that you can find true happiness when you find True love. Can you truly find that when everyone around you who claims to be older says your emotion you are feeling is puppy love or basically lust. Such people say that because they have not found that special someone in their life yet i can be wrong about that... I for one think that ( Read more... )

I will never let die everything i know of the past be it hurtful or to much for me to bare but i will never go back to the past i only see the future ahead of me and nothing more

There are many things that require no thought at all. For instance hooking up with someone at a party no thought at all it just happens. Yet then it becomes a problem when you hook up with someone at a party but your with someone do you still hook up or do you just leave it alone and stay by yourself? The question i want to know would you or ( Read more... )