today wasnt bad at all... i guess the only low part was when i did lawn work and my dad went over everything i had already done, like i didnt ever do. but God blessed me today and i was very thankful. now if it would just get a little bit warmer in my house i would be even happier. but i am going to have an early bed time tonight since ive een ( Read more... )

Alright... well I woke up early today. I am glad that I atleast got 8 hours of sleep. I wouldnt want any more than that, but I am just greatful that I got more than 2 or 4 hours. I had to force myself out of bed (the couch is more like it, cuz thats where i fell asleep) and I went to work from 11:30-3:00... and Im about to go work again. Im not too ( Read more... )

A woman concieves a child ( Read more... )

I feel so empty ( Read more... )

well... i feel pretty good right now. physically at least. I mowed for 2 and a half hours... sweated off more fluid than i had in me to the point of almost passing out... became energyless... took an awesome, cool, CLEAN, pretty smelling shower... and now i am back to absolutly nothing to do. which is the times in life when I am most depressed or ( Read more... )

horrible morning... pretty good day, and the night is seeming pretty freakin good. frapo coffee is awesome. and I am going to leave now... cuz im hangin out with people again... tonihgt... for the 3rd time in a row... which is making my sleep a little off but who cares. God bless. <3

never thought itd get so hard when i was past the valley, soaked by the rain. When did I say I was giving up? i didnt... but truthfully... i kinda want to. "jesus, i need direction." i need to be able to hear it... thats the only way ill be able to follow it. i had a good day. God was definantly with me today. but depression was over me. and i ( Read more... )

i think that was just about the longest vacation ever. for 8 days away from home... i wouldnt have believed it if days of the week didnt exist. talk about hecktic and wack off track. I feel good now that Im back home... I am trying to do my best to not think about when the next time I am leaving is. Clean: showered, washed, scrubbed, barried in ( Read more... )

i dont know how it came to this... i went to bed at 3 woke up at 8... sat around for 2 hours, when all i wanted was to go to sunday school. lmao. i can barely stay awake. and i dont have anymore contacts for another week. so my eyes are tired and dreiry. i was out till 2 with tray, eric, john, chad, ad hope. I saw "The Lords of Dogtown". and i am ( Read more... )

Tough days... I know how I get through them, but man... I dont know where i get the strength. Ive been ok. Summer is kind of moving slower than Id like for it to this year (2005). The highlight of every week that I get to live through, is church. I love it... it is basically my home. But I am going on so many trips and vacations this year.. and its ( Read more... )