so, pats coming back today. i think. i need to talk to him about shit. i missed him in school today, it sucks when youre in love with someone and unhappy at the same time. phil told me that if i feel like that itll eventually end, that ill leave him sooner or later cuz i just keep tryinng to fix things and if something is wrong itll just never be ( Read more... )

last night pj, jen, rafal and i rented a room at the pine motel and drank red devils and beek all night while watcching some neat porn hahaha. it was good times,  i made out with jen because shes my female lover. good times, rafal and i caught upo on eachothers lives too it was worth my time times thousand. i was happy.

awesome

following day, im listening to killers and theyre good. they are. patrick left for florida today, we didnt have the most exciting and loveable night last night so it kinda sux, i hope he has fun and is safe i also hope he still thinks about me when hes there, i want him to miss me and maybe think about what i mean to him, if i mean anything hahhah ( Read more... )

im going to try and write on here once more, perhaps now my days will be more interestins or my poetry more intriguing, wait none of you ever read my poetry besides mel, oh nice well anyway, patrick is leaving for florida for about 5 to 6 days and i plan on spending that time with my friends, friends who dont think im a coke addict and friends who ( Read more... )

it is monday.
um right now, im bored so i will
type a little entry here.
yes, today was allright.
this weekend was a lot of fun,
friday was a bbq at stefans,
there were many people there
whos company i enjoy muchly,
jen and pj & brian were there <3<3 ( Read more... )

last night
at stefans house.
must of been
on of the best nights ive had
in a year and a half.
stefan thank you
for everything.
and theres so much <3 ( Read more... )

i wont mention names ( Read more... )

ok so its saturday almost 5 oclock ( Read more... )

There are many things in life which cause people to feel emotions such a deep depression, overall unhappiness, a sense of low self esteem and severe feeling of loneliness, even when surrounded by a large amount of peers, friends or family. These certain feelings in my life are certainly due to heartbreak, past experiences and pain which life has ( Read more... )

01. who are you, what's our relationship ( Read more... )