kinda been ignoring this livejournal... my bad.

So finally things seem to be working out again. I guess its only natural in life to have those extra hard moments to make the easy ones worth it. Everyone knows about my break up with Ryan. It was mutual. And had been happening for 2 months now. Yes, i'll be the first to admit it was really hard on me ( Read more... )

life is hard. the end.

my journal is like a fucking roller coaster. im happy, im sad, im content and then the next day things go to shit again. im trying to change that. i really just want to be happy and i kinda have been for the past week. im trying to just live life right now and not worry about the small things, and some big. i'll find out in a few weeks whats going ( Read more... )

The days keep passing... and life has never been this hard or this difficult. i keep trying to work my way to the top... only to fall back down. why would you want to put your all into something if you know its just not going to work out? ... you shouldnt. As the days pass i feel less and less ambitious about things, and life. I'm just trying to ( Read more... )

were back together, although no one approves...

i just dont care anymore. in the end... your the only one that matters.

when you need your friends the most... they will just let you down.

i've never been so torn in my life...

things are fucked up, and so is my body.

i need to make things better, and get better....

but how?... this is the unknown question.

its been awhile hasnt it? le sighhh. me and ryan are still separated but trying to stay good friends at least. i've been working, and partying alot. just living it up. started belly dancing again so i can get in shape. gunna go to the gym more often... try to get into modeling more. school is going to happen hopefully this semester, gotta see what ( Read more... )

me and ryan broke up.

life will get better, that i swear.

is happyness even out there? doubtful. life is shitting on me.