well...back from spain ( Read more... )

its started. its starting to flare up. the travel anxiety. it might be about spain. but i think its more about leaivng home. 2.5 weeks was supposed to be long enough to get me tired of being here. but it hasn't been. i think with going to see my grandma and then jenny and bethany being here i just havne't been around my parents long enough ( Read more... )

to everything i wish i were, to everything i wish i am and to everything i wish i could become: i think i'm having a midlife crisis. the good news about this? im dying around 42...and i would rather go out before i have to go too far over that perverbial hill everyone talks about ( Read more... )

"just when the caterpillar thought the world was over, it became a butterfly" -anonymous ( Read more... )

I just had dinner with two of my best freinds from HS, nicole and angela. angela told me that nicole had somethign to tell me, but wouldn't tell me what it was. today as i was driving angela to the resturant i asked her if nicole is engaged. I guessed right. nicole still hasn't told me...which is slightly odd. there was a time when i would ( Read more... )

Not Montana ( Read more... )

I am home in MT now. I am not quite sure how i feel about it right now, but its going all right i guess. it hasn't even been 24 hours ( Read more... )

i just wrote a lot ...and then erased it. it really didn't make any sense or wasn't worth writing

its 3:00 a.m. i don't really know what else to do. i put some stuff into a box...went through my drawers and put clothes i want to pack in one drawer and left the stuff i don't want in the same drawer. i have way more stuff than i origionally thought...i don't know where it all comes from, but it keeps coming. and somehow i feel like i can't ( Read more... )

hmm...so i don't know how to spell it...but i think i might have it right now ( Read more... )