"i don't care if it hurts. i wanna have control. i want a perfect body, i want a perfect SOUL ( Read more... )

on another note, i am learning to open my heart more and i'm starting to see things through a new view. and it is a really beautiful view. i am flirting again, smiling at cute boys, not getting mad or trying to ignore when they are looking at me. just basically letting my cold heart out to breathe. i discovered the joy of "Muse". god, how ( Read more... )

to clarify, there are 2 major reasons why i left him. for some reason i could never tell him. i don't know if he has heard this before: IMMATURE. SELF-CENTERED ( Read more... )

i miss him and i know i don't want to be with him. does that make any sense ( Read more... )

"...it.s not about love. i am not in love. in fact i can.t stop falling out.

i miss that stupid ache."

i know it. and this just isn.t. and he knows it, too. only he wants to keep denying it. because he is. and i can.t do this to him. and i love things about him. we have plans for future dates. i keep thinking he might change. he may ( Read more... )

something more about 9/11

fucking myspace. it takes everything over...

you poets, you lovely activists, you beautiful artists, ... you better stay on livejournal.

because i love you here. and i love this space.

this is my place for space.

|oh, and i got a new computer up and running, so... hello again !|

heart ( Read more... )

so the computer situation is kinda sticky. we got it up and working and then i had to go and look at porn |god, why| and we got a virus. we had no spyware or updated cookies. i think i.m going to give in and buy a whole new computer when i have some money. for now.. i have a red alert screen and 15 minutes on the 'puter at work. wee ( Read more... )

so i am having issues with relationships indefinitely. i always get to this point where i am just completely and utterly sick of this person and i am not much attracted to them, everything they do annoys me, and the sex is blah. i am promiscuous by nature and i crave new flesh. i am a make out queen and i have never cheated before. i do not ( Read more... )