3-20-62 - 08/19/09. Love you Dad

"But in the end everyone ends up alone
Losing her, the only one who's ever known
Who I am, who I'm not and who I wanna to be
No way to know how long she will be next to me"

What was supposed to be a good night turned to shit.

I don't care about anything or anybody. I just don't care anymore. Thank you for everything, I'll never be the same.

This sounds really tempting
http://www.goarmy.com/JobDetail.do?id=47

I'm tired of getting lied to and fucked over time and time again. Maybe the first time was a mistake but not the second time around.

My life went from being near perfect to straight shit. I'm in a world of shit and I don't know what to do. I cant even begin to describe how I feel other than numb..

I still don't comprehend what happened, and I don't think I ever will. All of our plans for the future, home ownership, kids, etc. gone.

I'm lost.

Brokenhearted..

This weekend Amanda and I finally went to visit Mike and his bro's in North Carolina. Overall it was a damn good weekend. Mikes roomates are cool guys and the area is so nice. Oh yeah, I finally got to see snow for the first time ever ( Read more... )

This morning, at exactly 5:08 am, it completely sunk in. Up until this point whenever I would think about it I would shut down and block it out. Not this time tho..fuck.. I can't even begin to articulate how this feels.

Some valuable lessons were learned. Never say never.

Wow..fuck this