I forgot how wonderful running can be. It's been quite a few years since I've felt this way and I've missed it. I ran 2 and a half miles this morning which is the longest Ive run since beginning again. I had that floating feeling where you forget your running and you sort of drift along. The hills hurt and I felt slow as heck but it didnt take long ( Read more... )

what do you do when you feel like you need help, professional emotional help.. and you have no health insurance. Is there anything out there for people in my situation? I honestly feel like giving up, Im so tired of fighting and putting up with his BS and pretending Im ok when Im not. No one understands me or what Im going through. I wish I could ( Read more... )

I always loved glasses like this on other people but never had the guts to get them for myself. Well, I did it and Im having a hard time liking them on me. I keep putting my old ones on. Chris said he likes them but he might just be being nice. Ahh damn this lack of self esteem.


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Im doing the March of Dimes Walk America on April 30. No, Im not asking for money again... but maybe you can help in another way...

we have to make team t-shirts and theres a contest. I have no clue how to design a team t-shirt. I know it has to say either...


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I am so completely frustrated with this situation.
I dont know how to make things better, I wish I had someone to show me (us) the way.
I feel like Im losing it. I feel under appreciated. I miss my job. I miss not having to count pennies. I miss not feeling worthless.

I just don't know how to handle life these days.

My cousin is doing the walk for hunger for the 3rd time ( Read more... )

we bought one of those blow up pools for riley (and us) to sit in and she LOVED it!
(please pardon my gigantic log legs)


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I miss Chris. He went to stay with his brother Neal in Raleigh. Hopefully those boys behave themselves. It's funny, we have so much trouble communicating and getting alot but when we are apart its like half of me is gone. Tomorrow my mom and Riley and I are going to a sunrise service. Im nervous bringing the baby but my mom thinks she will be ok. I ( Read more... )

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How can someone not care about the fact that they are responsible for two lives now? I just dont understand his thinking. Why stay at walmart making crap for money when you are a veteran and can get a dynamite job with health insurance and great pay? Its like he's using it against me. I just wish he would step up and act like a man instead of a ( Read more... )