2008 needs to be better than 2007. Well, 2007 was fucking amazing until about July. I mean I graduated, I went out of the country twice, and there was just a lot of fun shit that occurred. Then Eric died and I got cancer and it just wasn't fun anymore. BUT i have decided that I'm going to go back to France for my make a wish trip and I just ( Read more... )

4 months today of chemo. Another 4 months and then I'm freeeee....sort of ( Read more... )

People need to learn when it's not ok to stick their noses in other people's business. It's my choice to tell people things about my life, and it pisses me off that some have taken advantage of that. I am not "sick" and I'm done with listening to people ask me how i am and to tell me to take care of myself and having pity for me. I got stuck with a ( Read more... )

I'm sick of lying to everyone. I'm not fine. I'm not ok. I don't want to do this anymore. And I can't look my parents in the eye ever since I told them that. I just want my life back..

I miss my hair. sad day. I miss my crazy life too. This one is a sad time and I hope I don't permanently become an old person. I got a blood transfusion today which is such a weird concept--to get someone else's blood like pumped into your body. I wonder who's it was. But thanks to anyone who's ever donated. And if you have type O blood please ( Read more... )

wowwwwww insomnia so bad right now. I knew my body was only just kidding me when it fell asleep without sleeping pills tonight. At least when I take ambien i feel like i am sort of sleeping, right now I am so awake it's ridiculous. I wish I had someone here who didn't sleep as well so I wasn't so friggen bored. Maybe I can make an online friend who ( Read more... )

I need my friends to come home. It's getting sad and lonely here and I don't have anyone to hang out with. Well that could be mostly my fault cause I just want to like sit in my bed in my pjs but I should get over myself ( Read more... )

wow whoever decided that putting poison in someones veins was a good way to get rid of cancer sucks. i have decided that my life goal needs to be a better way to get rid of this shit because this is no way to live right now. ah its weird because i felt so good all weekend and then its just like whoa hey this will cure you but youre going to feel ( Read more... )

Uhh so I suppose I'll sit down and write something here since I really have nothing else to do and getting it all out helps, so they say. So cancer sucks--basically. I mean actually I feel better now than I have all summer since I don't have incredible back pain anymore, which disappeared  as soon as I started treatment, which is pretty awesome and ( Read more... )

Gah it's overwhelmingly hot in this house. One month from today and I leave for school. It's weird because I was extremely excited like a month ago and now I'm not and everyone around me is. Things are not right with me lately and I don't know what it is. I just feel like I need to be out of my own skin all the time and I always need to be out ( Read more... )