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Hey, So here is my question what is the point of life? I have been thinking about it alot lately. For those of you who do not know i will be going to Hesston Collage in KA. The Augest after i finish highschool and i am so afraid to go. I will have no friends there and i have not had to make a new group of friends in a long time. I love my crew at ( Read more... )

Hey i just wanted to update really fast befor i go to bed. I just watched the movie 13 again and it really is a good movie. Any way i have been thinking alot lately about growing up and moving out of my house and leaving high school and i dont know if i can do it. I dont know if i will ever be able to suceed in the world and hold a job and get ( Read more... )

Hey, Ya i have not updated in a long time i am on my brother's computer right now which will probably get me into shit later but oh well. So ya i have been doing all right. I have been really busy working on my Jr. Thesis i have so much to do on it i hate final outlines. So i have been busy working on school work i have also decided i am officially ( Read more... )

I hate who i have become. I hate that i act the way i do. I hate that i blow things out of proportion i hate that i care as much as i do. I hate that i lost Nate, Sparky and Matt because of who i am. I hate that i dont know if i should try and change for them or if i should just be like fuck you this is who i am and im happy with it. Im not happy ( Read more... )

Hey well shit i have not updated in fucken ever. Well anyway lets see whats going on with me. Im still not friends with Nate he says we can be friends again if i stop blowing things out of proportion and stop being a drama queen but i don't ever see that hapening because its a major part of my personality and if i could change it i might but it is ( Read more... )

Hey, So ya i have not been able to update in a while. My computer is not working right well the internet at least. And something is Fucked up wth my AOL so my sn and everyones SN who is linked to mine like mir's is fucked up and its annoying so um ya e-mail me idk when it will be back. So ya xmas break has been better then i thought it would be on ( Read more... )

Hey, So ya xmas is coming and im not that excited about it. Idk i have been really blah lately. I dont know im happy but im not. I dont know what i want anymore. I want Sparky's friendship. I would love for missa to stop flirting with sparky at every chance she gets thats really starting to bug me. I really am emotionless im not depressed but im ( Read more... )

hey, ya so alot has happend since the last time i updated. Sparky is back in school him and i are still friends but b/c of the whole break up i slacked off in school so my grades have all droped alot so ya.. So i am not seeing sparky that much but we are cool. Things with me and nate are back to normal me and him are not really talking. Things with ( Read more... )

Ok so im not sure where i left off i think it was last sunday. Ok so ya last sunday sparky dumped me. I was really hurt and of corse i did shit like try to rationalize it with shit like he loves me he really does JJ and Nate where prussuring him to break up with me by making fun of him. or he just cant handle a g/f right now but he loves me. Of ( Read more... )