i haven't cried that hard in a long time.
this fucking hurts.
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Dearest Alex ( Read more... )

You don't fucking understand, alex..
It's you..it's you..all over again.
Can't it be different this time?
Can't we work things out?

why do i love you?

god, you'll never know.
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i haven't cried for awhile now. it's been a few weeks. and usually i cry a lot. but i've shut down. i'm numb, apathetic, indifferent..whatever you want to call it, I'm not feeling a goddamn thing..i don't cry, i don't give a damn about anything..all i do is sit around and play my snare and get frustrated because i can't play flamacues and flam ( Read more... )

gosh! i am so tired of all these stupid people! some people just don't know anything.. goddamn..

.."I'm going to give you the choice I never had..."

"..Liberals, intellectuals, peacemongers, IDIOTS..."

i'm starting to think that maybe Ward Churchill is becoming something I thought he wasn't at first. I'm starting to dislike him with a great passion...which is contrary to my thoughts about him before.

I'm really rather tired. and i feel sick. i'm soooo very exhausted. Today was long. There was a lot of Garrett, a lot of Alex, a lot of drumsticks, a lot of singing, and a whole lot of Jesus.

oh. woe is me.
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