after attempting suicide, and landing yourself in the emergency room for 7 hours, everything becomes different. I think that today was the most beautiful day of my life. I have never loved living as much as I love it now. Not everything's better...nothing is solved, but once you actually are lying in your own blood, and hallucinating from all the ( Read more... )

they were right when they said love

is the slowest form of suicide

because his lips are laced with poison

and im so addicted to his kiss

fuck. it hurts more and more everytime i talk to him. i know this girl isn't going to work. i half wish it would, so he would be happy, but i just want her to be cynical and mean so he comes right back to me whining and crying like a little girl, because he knows i'm the only girl that will ever accept him like i will.
damn, i'm posessive.

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Chris: I told you I was in Phoenix, right?
Me: No
Chris: Well I am
Me: Wait, right now?
Chris: Yes
Me:Ummm...
Chris: I took a hot air balloon ride today.

why is he doing this to me, dammit? god..he's so sweet..i wish he wasn't sweet, so i could hate him. i do hate him. he's ruining me. he's making me fall in love with him, while telling me i can't have him. WHY?? it was supposed to be so perfect. we were supposed to work this time. why can't he seem to figure out that if he goes out with a million ( Read more... )

I'm tired. I think I'm getting sick, and I do not want to go to church tomorrow. I would rather sleep than pretend to be a good little Christian girl, who really does bad things when the clergy isn't looking. Blah blah blah. I'm pretty psyched to be going back to school, because I've been so bored, and I get to see all my friends again, which will ( Read more... )

i hate april fools day. i totally broke alex's little heart, and told him I had tickets to a Tool concert, and he was like "ooohh man, that's be tight." Damn, I feel so bad now. SHIT! Then I told Alyse that I had sex with Alex, and that Lauren fooled around with Chris Bennett, which didn't blow over so well, so that was amusing. I told my other ( Read more... )

when you say my name,
i want to split it from your lips
and hide like whispers in the rain.
when you say my name
i want to stop it in your lungs
and collect all of your blood to put in the radio.

I am so tired of this shit. I hate this. I hate this. I hate this. There are too many things swirling around in my little head, and I can't fucking handle it. I swear to God, I'm going insane, and I can't stop it. If my life keeps going this way by the end of Freshman year, you're going to find me wandering around lost in a forest, talking to ( Read more... )