okay...well alot has changed since that last update... my life was going so well, but now after reading alot of shit... i just wanna die again... i cant even believe that they(a person who will remain naimless) could ever say that... i realli just want to sit in my room and kill myself... everything that i said was going so good all of a sudden ( Read more... )

i think im finaling realzing how fucked up that whole thing with billy actually was... and i realized how many friendships it fucked up... mine and billys, sarah, roylene, and courtney... but courrtney and roylene i could care less.. but its sucks because me and billy were such good friends and i messed it all up... theres no1 else to blame but ( Read more... )

ok well one of the last times i wrote was realli negative saying i hated life... but quite frankly i love it now ( Read more... )

i didnt go to school so i sat home all day and did make up work... Then i was like i have to go out but of course i couldnt... so i sat around doing nothing... at like 730 i layed down i saw that i had ims so i got up and it was tara... she came to get me at like 915 we went down to manalapan she had to pick something up... then we came back and ( Read more... )

well im in a lot of trouble... my stupid ass got completly wasted...and came home at like 730 on thursday , couldnt even see puking everywhere...but eh whatever... i woke up the next morning with a hangover like a mother fucker ( Read more... )

life sucks these days....billy hates me... but thts ok...i hate him too.... hes such an ass... he starts so much shit with me... but yea i have to go to gym... so ill update ya later...

lately life has been ok i guess....i got my tounge pierced which is a good thing...but you dont know how many guys ive never talked to in my life came up to me and asked me if i suck dick...just cuz i got my tounge pierced...its ridiculous....

then one of my best friends started to hate me for no reason..well there is a reason but im not going to ( Read more... )

one of my last updates was very negative...but this isnt going to be... cuz everything had takin a turn for the good....

my parents are talking to me and being nice to me cuz i was realli upset the other day and i was talking to mrs. scavone and was like my mom makes me wanna kill myself she uch a bitch to me...she called my mom and told her... ( Read more... )

well....life sucks realli bad lately... my mom still hates me ( Read more... )

the past week has been 2 things quiet and very interesting....

1- quiet- well lets just say my mom doesnt say more then 3 words to me at a time and wont even look at me... i kinda peirced my nose when she told me not to...and i defied her what ever the hell that means. shes realli mad at me but hey who cares it nice and quiet i love it

2- ( Read more... )