It's funny, instead of counting down the days until Christmas, I find myself counting the days until you come home. 8 more days. Oh, but don't think I'm not excited for Christmas too! Food, wine, music, and the family by the fire.... I can't wait.

 You are realizing that even though your world is beginning to settle down, there is still a lot of hard work for you to do over the next month. It may feel as if your great adventure is morphing into the drudgery of infinite details. The enormity of your job could be a bit overwhelming, but it will be easier if you take it one step a time instead ( Read more... )

 I've waited for this moment for so long and now I don't know what to do with it.

I've finished graduate classes and I've moved out of worcester. I'm on to a bigger and better part of my life.... right?
I'm not as happy as I thought I'd be. I guess because I don't have any closure, and of course there's also the part about me living back at home for ( Read more... )

"When I get lonely these days I think: So be lonely, Liz. Learn your way around loneliness. Make a map of it. Sit with it, for once in your life. Welcome to the human experience. But never again use another person's body or emotions as a scratching post for your own unfulfilled yearnings."
- Elizabeth Gilbert, Eat, Love, Pray

Whelp, there that is ( Read more... )

You may not know which way to turn next because you cannot resolve your natural need for emotional connection with your new found taste for independence. This is unfamiliar ground, for you usually feel more secure when you are in a fully committed relationship. Don't push away.

So I wrote this way back in June and just found it on my computer. It's very rough and I'm not completely satisfied with it, but I wanted to put it out into the world... even if it is only on here. Pardon some of the cliche lines and words (although he did say our relationship was a catch-22 and that he loved me, but that he didn't want to be with ( Read more... )

stop fucking questioning yourself.

you're better than this, get your act together.

globes & maps ( Read more... )

Suppressed thoughts are the dreamed,
not the dreams we wish to have while we are awake.

Although I'm not quite sure why I had a dream that someone killed octavio! Or why I dreamt I drowned when jimbo, bill, and I tried to out run a tidal wave.

Hmph.

Suh-leep time.