so lets see an update cuz its been a long time...umm thursday was thursty thursdays at my friends house passed out on a dog bed..ummm..friday was nothing cuz work sat morning. lastnight was pretty damn awesome my friends band played at his birthday and lots of drunkin fun music i got to see my super cool friends and charise later that night as well ( Read more... )

why do i feel it so important to be in a relationship and to be in love i mean sure i love the feelings and the happyness that comes with it but why do i live my life looking for it it just makes me even more sad and makes everything so much worse.i mean it will come at the right time i guess..i guess its just that im sooo scared to die alone and ( Read more... )

i wonder why i am the way i am i mean there must be a good reason for it but shit it dosnt seem like there would be a good reason to make someone like that...nobody know this but im freakin 20 years old im ready for a serious long term relationship cuz i want to be with someone for some years before we get married and i dont want to end up alone ( Read more... )

ok trust me guys i really would like to write something happy and stop with these stupid entries but honestly i dont have much in my life that is good or happy or really anything right now. im kinda trying hybernat from everything and everyone but not.i dont know i just want to go away for a while and not talk to anyone and find out who are the ( Read more... )

gosh dangit i hate being sick soo much i cant eat or drink anything cuz it goes right back up and i cant really move cuz im sore and have the biggest headache of my life and just freakin god damn blah!

i hate the fact that i know i need to move and i know i have things to be happy about but its a little harder when you were sooooo freakin in love with someone. its just hard for me to move on at the snap of a finger. but thats not the only reason ive been blah latly. and honest i have happy for her that she is fallowing her heart and living life ( Read more... )

just so you guys know no i am not hurting myself right now!!..yes i am sad and depressed and could be handling things in a better way and could just try to move on.but its adam and i suck at this shiz..night

...with every cut and every drop...its a memory of love won and lost...its all i can do for myself...i sit and watch the red tears fall from my heart...

why the fuck do i try..why the fuck do i care..why the fuck cant i just be me and be happy right now and write something other than emo entries..oh well fuck it

i am unhappy with myself i am unhappy with who i have became. i am just generaly just unhappy i hate myself i wish i dont know i,...evermind i wont share that with you i just fuck shit nevermind i wont share that with you i just hate how i dont have the person i love and i i hate myself goodnight and goodbye nighty night