I have really dumb emotions and they keep changing ......i can't do this.... i hate periods ....i think it's coming b/c I'm really emotionally messed up right now.....crap....

I miss Brandon ....not just him ....The couple things we did ....I told him ....and he cried about me gettin taken advantage that one time .....or couple .....i dunno made me wonder ....I'm still in love with him ...I think he knows it

ummm yeah so he annoys me when he's cocky ....lol so i tell him uhh shut up ....lol and he thinks I'm kidding ....yeah I'm mean but get really cocky and I'm bitchy

I will never understand ....Brandon is somehow exactly like his dad ...I told Sierra what I know about Brandon and she said "Just like my dad" .....It's horrible ...I wish he didnt lie to me ...it made things worse between us ... If he asked if I was going out with someone ..i'd tell him the truth...He is a fun person except when it comes to ( Read more... )

I've had an interesting but partially good weekend ...Seeing Cisa was not the best ....I walked away before i wanted to throw up ...Brandon and I are fine... =) ...last nite though....I've never kissed any one outside when lightning was striking....It was awesome just for that fact....So now I'm apparently going out with Derek .....umm yeah ....so ( Read more... )

Brandon is doing it again ....ignoring to me lying to me ....grrr....I'm done I'm done I'm done .....fuck ...i dont like that it bugs me...blow it all away

My heart was beating fast and I kept forgetting to breath......damnit....so he took my breath away what can i say

I've been feeling a lil better .We had a performance last nite so I knew Cisa was coming sometime .....I was bracing for it ...why ?....bc i want her to go away . I want to stop feeling so sick everytime she comes around. anyways...Brandon thought it was funny that I was wishing that she would go away and 5 seconds later she did. Welll...Kenz and ( Read more... )

I've been feeling extremely lonely ....and sad . When Brandon asks "Are you okay?" ....I always respond with "yeah..." ...how can i tell him I'm feeling miserable and lonely . I now have no one to hang out with at lunch ....Brandon but he'll think I'm desperate....Last September was bad ....why is this one now too?

This is where it all begins ( Read more... )