i need a change.  and i hate this user name so from now on i'll be going bysoft_n_slow

i have a format i just need help putting it together.  im going to add everyone from this journal onto that
and if you dont add me back i'll delete you (assuming you dont love me anymore)
so add me!

i need affection.
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i have more enemies than i realized.
i am not as nice a person as i thought i was.
i have a cursing problem.
i have a verbal abuse problem.
i have an anger problemjewish people dont like me ( Read more... )

everytime i close my eyes.

i cant concentrate. i havent felt this .......... in so long.
im way overdue

i havent had real sex since october.
OCTOBER

both of you need to come home soon...! its time to break records

i love lizzie mcquire. and hillary duff. (cuz shes hot)
and angelina jolie. ah.

:( i feel like a fat ass balloon. i'm pmsing real bad, and eating everyhting in sight
i weight about 900 pounds.

i need will to come home NOW. i cant wait till tuesday...
!!

COmE HOMe From MexICo godamnit.

i hate keeping my own secrets... this blows.

im so sexually frusterated that im going to explode.

im sick of everyone except you. so lets be mush and have something beautiful.
last night was pretty beautiful

for the first time in my life, i can handle this without getting attatched.
i am really, really proud of myself.

i am 98% sure i will orgasm.

and i need to stop smoking. if it means i stop hanging out with people who smoke, so be it. it needs to stop.

(im about 78% sure i'll smoke the rest of this pack, and about 62% sure i'll buy another one ( Read more... )

ahhh you little slut ( Read more... )

today i gave up black eyeliner

for anyone whos known me since 6th grade, you know this is a big accomplishment.

and also... Fairweather broke up?? what the shit.. no1 told me this.

im never going to the diner again.
::smile::
this is the first time i didnt get all fucked up about it.
andyoulookedlikehell

wills comign home tuesday...me and him are getting together tues. night.
i cant wait..i cant fucking wait to see him again :D

other than that, life is pretty miserable.

i really wanna make saturday nights an official ossining night, like the last two saturdays. its the most fun in the world. it would be even more fun if will was home ( Read more... )