finally, a bit of grounding. i almost forgot what it was to have a personal health day ( Read more... )

laura, that is the most sound advice i've ever encountered.
thank you.

[now i am going to sleep; i haven't finished homework but my eyelids are heavy from drawing eyelids.]

this doesn't get easier ( Read more... )

i am subconsciously sabotaging myself.
only now i know that i'm doing it.
so it isn't subconscious anymore.

i am consciously sabotaging myself.

and yet i can't wait to graduate and get the hell out of here.

(i think my academic soul is schitzophrenic.)

i am in love with sociology.
if only the rest of the world were so enlightened....

the boys are being loud; i want to kiss someone.

teach me to kayak.

it is cold and rainy and i have been high for the last two nights in a row. ten to twenty pages of project writing have yet to spring from thin air and i stretched the wrong way in dance class, leaving me with an incredibly stiff nick ( Read more... )

my horoscope said that today would be a good one, that i should do whatever it is i've been meaning to do for some time now ( Read more... )

this week has been rather, um, surreal. i think that's the best word to describe it. i've come full circle in a lot of ways between friday night and here, now. from the all too familiar depressed, destructive, self medicating, anxious moods i like to think i finally kicked after last year, to a more grounded appreciation of the fact that there ( Read more... )

my apologies for the melodrama. sometimes it just needs to come out. the evening ended well, though. meg came back around nine or ten last night with marisa and corrie, bearing chocolate chip cookie fixings. i talked them into "baking and baking" (not that it was difficult...) and we had a grand 'ole time. i haven't laughed so hard in a long ( Read more... )

the things that used to make me happy/content/anything but this don't anymore ( Read more... )