i dont belong here anymore. i dont belong anywhere come to think of it ( Read more... )

hmm, yesterday i had alot of fun. i cruised around in my dads truck and had loads and loads of funn ( Read more... )

ew, so tonight my dads wife told me to go somewhere and get lost for the weekend. im like, uhm where should i go and she told me she didnt care just go. god theyre so dumb. so now theyve just gone back to the norm; ignoring jess as much as possible. they pretend i dont actually exist. like i come and go ( Read more... )

today was worky sucky, then it was pick up jarid then it was go to ians and buy pot and booze and then it got crappy cause jarid was sick and then it was good cause i chugged my forty in the car and smoked 2 bowls....

yerp...

and here i am

idk my brakelights wont go off in my car one bit...

:(

poor dodgey

BI!!

well lets see, thursday night me and jarid got 40's. we got mega drunk and got lost in the woods. we walked a long way home covered in dirt and sticks lol. then we got to his home and we smoked and watched wonder showzen <3 so funny ( Read more... )

i called him. i called him and the sadness hit me like a bunch of bricks. he doesnt want me. im too fucked up. he doesnt want me at all. not even a break. he wants to be free and be able to hook up with other girls and do whatever he wants. that broke my heart so much.....i dont know what to do. thats when i do my worst ( Read more... )

im making a point of being pointless....

anyways, me and justin are over. it hasnt sunk in but i miss him.

even mushroomhead cant help me now....

:'(

...jess

Today on this pleasant Monday Jarid and I hung out. We smoked some pot and watched some odd movie. Then Jarid said "hey jess you wanna smoke the salvia?" i said "sure lets do it". so then he packed a bowl of it (its legal by the way) with some shit he bought online (6x shit something idk the strongest can go up to the 20's) BUT so Jarid took 3 hits ( Read more... )

hehe ( Read more... )

friday was fun, me and jarid went and took painkillers at my house then we sat. talked about snakes. snakes...

then we went to the punk house got high, really high and he freaked out cause he wasnt used to punk house weed :P

saturday i sat around, got high.

sunday sat around. erik got into an accident :(

i gtg

its 5 in the morning