Me complaining about not changing ever since this year or this month or x time ( Read more... )

Even though I've posted this gif before...


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It is ridiculously cold in my house ( Read more... )

Because I haven't done one of these in a long time, I'm human and I like to talk about myself, and I don't want to read Mayor of Casterbridge or study for psych or come to terms with how disappoint I am.

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I just changed my profile picture back to one from November 2009 ( Read more... )

Things that made me happy today ( Read more... )

Why doesn't my dad have work on Friday?

I ended up venting to my violin teacher about college and how badly I don't want to be here right now. And by right now I mean right now, as in for the next month or so. I feel like in a few months I'll probably realize I would miss home a lot if I left. But for now, I really don't want to be here. Being alone ( Read more... )

Also, it's scary that the memories we think about the most or remember the most ( Read more... )

I basically have two choices.

I can pretend to be okay with it, still, somehow, magically.
OR I can start to shut down, which is starting to sound like a really good idea. I know it works for some people, this escaping and shutting down on the outside. But sometimes I feel too dependent on everyone else to tell me what to do and how to sort this out ( Read more... )

I would love to just have one day where I can have fun and be happy and not worry about the things that usually constantly eat at my subconscious even if I'm eating cotton candy or watching a really funny movie or dancing around to really good music in my footie pajamas ( Read more... )