Everything happened ( Read more... )

What the fuck happened to livejournal.

Anyways.

( is this just my diary idek )

I am feeling 9 different feelings right now and none of them are good.

My enter key is broken. That's the only reason why I left so many spaces between this sentence and the sentence before it.
I'm going to skateboard now.

Kind of.

I think I moved away from live journal in an attempt to get rid of the habit of posting and whining and complaining about being sad and wallowing all the time. I look back and normally, in hindsight, things should seem relatively silly and "wtf was wrong with me"-ish. Instead I can still easily draw from memory the same feel and all I can think at ( Read more... )

makes me very very sad ( Read more... )

The more I see people adding "University of Maryland, College Park" to 'education' on Facebook, I push my self further and further in denial. I know I'm going to CP, game over. There isn't enough money for UW. I told myself I can pay of student loans but I can't. I can barely handle life right now, and nothing is happening right now. I need to be ( Read more... )

Ikea makes me realize how insignificant all this feel will be in 10 years times. When I'm (hopefully, one day) a half of that newlywed couple looking for the right bar stool for the apparent or 1/4 or 1/3 of the new family looking at kiddie beds and brightly colored chairs, the angst and depression and pain experienced as an melodramatic 17-year- ( Read more... )

Reasons why I want to go to University of Washington:
-bioe rank is beautiful
-cherry blossoms are beautiful
-I want to live in Washingotn
-it's far away from here
-it's close to California aka insta-nicer-weather
-it's possible for us to get in-state tuition...just a difficult possible.
-I would be so far away from the sources of every little bit of ( Read more... )

....I'm not a really superstitious person ( Read more... )

Here is March.

I don't know what happened to winter. I can't even really mentally grasp what happened in what was supposed to be winter because so much happened at once and I constantly went back and forth from "wtf is happening to me" to "everything went better than expected" to "holay molay is this really happening to me this is great"...then back ( Read more... )