My house has just basically one big downstairs. You can't say something in one room without clearly hearing it in the other ( Read more... )

As much as I wish things would just go away, they wont. And even if it magically went away and everyone managed to make it  go away and I even start pretended it did, it never will. So I'd rather deal with it first. But i can't deal with it myself ( Read more... )

Waking up is hard to do ( Read more... )

And then comes the moment when I realize that ever since I quit swimming, the only thing I have been trying to do is find something else that makes me happy. And so far I've done a generally terrible job ( Read more... )

I don't like the concept of fate even though I kind of believe in it ( Read more... )

I keep on posting and then deleting and then writing and then deleting because I say the same things over and over again. But there's too much to keep in.

I hate missed opportunities.

And I get yelled at a lot of spending too much time wondering about what would've happened if I did this instead of that.

I will never stop doing that. I don't know if ( Read more... )

I am not one bit ready for college ( Read more... )

"Chemistry and good timing ( Read more... )

math ( Read more... )

tired.

I broke out the comforter since when I woke up this morning I immediately went into fetal position since it was sub-50 degrees out.
sincesincesincesince. I love this weather.

I tell myself I'm complete aware of my own mistakes and pitfalls and I'm trying to stay on my toes but I find that
very difficult. Considerably difficult.
Almost impossible.

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