Rain, rain on my face
It hasn't stopped raining for days
My world is a flood
Slowly I become one with the mud

But if I can't swim after forty days
and my mind is crushed by the thrashing waves
Lift me up so high that I cannot fall
Lift me up
Lift me up - when I'm falling
Lift me up - I'm weak and I'm dying
Lift me up - I need you to hold me
Lift me up - Keep ( Read more... )

tonight was different...I just loved it. like if I smiled for like 2 more seconds it was going to be stuck there forever. I haven't smiled, and actually meant it that much in soo long. like for the longest time I felt like happiness was hopeless. I know it won't always be like that, I'm not ready for it to be. but just for tonight, it was ( Read more... )

I have now come to the conclusion I spend entirely too much money. pretty much I have like no money to my name. I spend it all on food and clothes and dumb things. so I now stop ( Read more... )

gah I love John. too bad he has a girlfriend haha. probably the sweetest guy ever. we talked on the phone for like 2 hours last night it was insane. I kinda miss Sam almost..I haven't talked to him in over a week. it's a little weird. but we're both so busy its understandable..just sucks ( Read more... )

it's funny...I feel I should be a lot more upset...angry, or hurt or something. but it's really no shock anymore. you two are probably the fakest people I have ever met in my life. the only thing I keep thinking about it is how sad it is that I'm not at all surprised. you can think what you want, you can talk what you want, but trust me none of it ( Read more... )

yea its past 4am and I am no where near tired. thats gonna come back and bite me in the ass come tomorrow....yayy me. saw pirates tonight. kinda sucked, last like half hour was good thats about it ( Read more... )

I decided an update was necessary. although I feel like all I ever do is work. I had a nice 17 hour day last monday..yea never again. I dunno I get pushed around a lot when it comes to staying late or picking up shifts. I'm always the first called because they know I'll take it. I really don't mind it, it's not hard work or anything and I usually ( Read more... )

Swim in the Atlantic Ocean at three in the morning under the moon and the stars and a sky whose limitless immensity is rivaled only by the water in which you wade, and call out to your friend who swims in that nothingness with you, and be something there and then, floating and turning and never staying in one place-be something, together.
Run ( Read more... )

so my schedule for next week ( Read more... )

instead of studying and working on my econ questions like I should be, Sams coming over for a lazy night. =) things with us are well....exactly what I want. it just sucks that we're both so damn busy. and his last day at scraft is friday so I won't even see him there. it kinda sucks cuz one of us is always working during the day then night we both ( Read more... )