I feel pretty much worthless right now. She doesn't care about me. She is only concrened with making sure she's ok. Can I blame her? Should I feel bad about these facts? No. It's just a hard reality knowing that no one else in the world loves you. No one wants to make sure you're ok. No one can't live without you...yet you are not the same.

I went for a drive last night to try and clear my head but nothing is clear about my life right now. Take it as it comes Brian, take it as it comes.

A rejection and "I love you" should not be allowed to be uttered in the same breath ( Read more... )

Well here I am. It's been a strange and at times wonderful, at others heartbreaking, three weeks. I think I've learned a lot about myself, about who I am, and who I want to be. I'm not really sure where this is going, any of it, but I'm going to content myself with riding the wave and taking it a day at a time.Maybe it's the fact that I'm working ( Read more... )

1. Stop thinking about her you idiot
2. Listen to the great music you accumulated last night and clean your house
3. Battlestar Galactica and Dirty Jobs marathons at the same time, get on that dillhole
4. Barnes&Noble and Best Buy Gift cerftificates that need using
5. The gym and the dogpark (containing cute girls and fun dogs) await you

It's quiet in here, I spent my whoe day in room virtually. I spend it alone because I know I'm the only person who I can handle dissapoint me any more. It's strang cutting yourself off from the world, even when i venture out for my daily exercise I put on head pphones and speak to no one. The people at the dark park, even the ones who are there day ( Read more... )

I know I keep talking about the bitch that rejection is, but it's all that's been on my mind the past few days. I don't understand, I'm attractive (though unique looking I know) I'm personable, I'm fun, and I'm intelligent. In every aspect of my life I am a strong, certain, take charge person. So why is my lovelife socompletely fucked? Why is it so ( Read more... )

I know I'm co dependant. I don't see how it's a bad thing. At least I'm reliable.

1. What is your best friend's Mom's name ( Read more... )

So not 10 minutes after I posted the last entry my roomate came in and asked if I wanted to go watch the game at Champs with him and some of his work friends. I resisted at first, but, seriously why would I want to be alone all night? So Will and I get there and there's a few familiar faces, people who say "Hey Boosz!" when I walk in. This is ( Read more... )