Comments | xmyfallingstarx: This Journal is dedicated to the very best of each and every one of you

xmyfallingstarx

This Journal is dedicated to the very best of each and every one of you

Dec 22, 2003 15:25

All my life I've been so afraid of change, I hate when things are different and when I lose the sense of knowing where I'm at, I hate unstability. It's the worst. But the worst feeling ever is looking back at my life and missing the things I can never get back. Just stupid, simple memories that for some reason comfort me. I've made so many amazing ( Read more... )

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dontxpanic December 24 2003, 09:24:09 UTC

Hi Paige... I'm kind of hurt, because if I would've made one of these, I defenitally would have put your name in it. Because we've had our "ups", and we defenitally have had our "downs" but, I've never forgotten any of our memories. But, I understand... I'm not doing this for an appology, I'm just letting you know that our memories were a big part of my life. Happy Holidays<3 Good luck with Alex.

xmyfallingstarx December 24 2003, 10:33:18 UTC

not even joking, after i updated I was like "I should've put something about me and brooke fighting every day in 5th grade" and then yesterday lindsey and i were talking about how that one day at your house in your pool we tried to convince you that some adema song was cool because it said "appreciate, dont playa hate, congratulate" and we're like "See brooke, it says 'playa' you HAVE to like it!" ahaha. good times. But you have to understand, i specifically said "to each and every one of you" because I can't name all the people I've had in my life... im sorry i hurt you. i can garuntee you I'll never forget the memory of you choking on doritos in my room. now if ANYTHING deserves to be remembered, its that. hahaha.

xmyfallingstarx December 24 2003, 10:34:35 UTC

ps- merry christmas <3

dontxpanic December 24 2003, 11:47:00 UTC

haha yah im pretty sure the whole choking on doritos thing beats ANY of your memories in there. hahhaha that was so funny man, weve had some pretty good memories. member when you told me i was trying to act like a teenager or somtehing? ahh too funny. i miss u!

tragic_death December 27 2003, 13:45:00 UTC

woah, that was the longest thing i ever read, but i was bored and found your lj. and i remember all of those experience you talked about in there, that i was in. that is so sad, we used to be so close. 10 period english, and condoms in mrs. waits class. and nick and mike. awwww i want those times back, 8th grade was so easy, we jsut screwed around all year :)

now we actully have to try? this is gay!

xmyfallingstarx January 1 2004, 14:46:31 UTC

=o( we had so much fun... it's not fair.

against_myself December 28 2003, 23:05:31 UTC

I guess I have to comment, just because ( ... )

against_myself December 28 2003, 23:08:05 UTC

Ps- Ms. Ward was a bitch if I'd ever met one. (which I have.)

xmyfallingstarx January 1 2004, 14:59:50 UTC

I'm sorry, I didn't want to almost make you cry. I dont want to cry over the past either. I hate that. I don't like crying, because it only gets me wet (being that you're jenna, I'm hoping you know who sings that.) haha. Anyways. I could NEVER forget about you. Ever. I'm sorry I made you think that those things didn't mean anything. I guess we just had the friendship that made me feel like I didn't have to say that stuff. I just knew, and I hoped you knew too. I thought about going to your house all the time too. And I was scared of the same things. So incredibly scared, and I don't like that. I dont like the fact that someone who I trusted so much made me scared now. I want you to know, I did not call your house the drug house. I told someone (I can't even remember who) that our neighbors were talking to my mom and said that and my mom told me. It was a misunderstanding. But even though it was, I shouldn't have told anyone. And I'm sorry. I didn't mean to hurt you. No sane person ever WANTS to hurt someone like that. No sane person ( ... )

juliexoolie December 30 2003, 08:36:38 UTC

wow.
I was thinking about those things a few days back, but I could've never put them down in words like that. Things have changed, for good and bad. I'll shut up now, point is that I miss the old things too.
drama sucks.

xmyfallingstarx January 1 2004, 15:02:40 UTC

we've all been thinking about that. and we're all thinking pretty much the same thing.

agreed, drama blows

anonymous December 30 2003, 20:36:36 UTC

oh god. things really have changed. i remember sitting around and being like i can't wait till im in high school and i can't wait to be older and now we are. graham was so much fun. everyone was friends, and yeah we all thought lindsay was annoying but we didn't care. sixth grade... we were the shit. there was always people sitting on the floor at lunch. seventh grade, it was all about school. and 8th grade was the best! me you lindsey julie beth jenn teresa. we didn't care about anything we blew everyone and everything off that pissed us off. we always got in so much trouble but we had SOOO much fun. and this year, none of us hang out anymore. it definitly sucks. weve known each other for so long, we didn't even know, we have so many memories good and bad and scary (jamie) but i wouldn't trade any of them in for anything. i love you. -Morgan

xmyfallingstarx January 1 2004, 15:05:43 UTC

oh my god. 6th grade. haha. there was always people like on the floor and then the lunch lady would yell at ME for it. and I'm like "Theres like 600 people sitting on the floor, you expect me to get them all to move?" Truth is, they would've moved if I told them too... I just liked talking to everyone. it was so happy. We were good friends. not just close, I mean we were good at it. We were all just good at being friends with each other. We mixed well. We were just flat out good at it. and now its so sad that its gone... i hate missing things. I hate it.