Reading this is pretty sad. I'm so ashamed of myself. Uhm, I'm clean. It may sound as a shock compared to my past couple of entries. I'm in college now. SUNY Oneonta. It's awesome. I wonder what ever happpened to Lukie. I wish I had teh chance to persue that. My psycho ex bf "Joe B" pretty much wasted the past 2 years of my life. It sucks how ( Read more... )

my friends are all afraid of the future, but im not. maybe im too laid back.

as far as who i care about, ive really narrowed it down. im sick of this drama anyway and im only going to focus on the people that i want in my life.

amanda comes home in 38 days.

i miss her too bad. it hurts.

hmm. this kid sean waste of life douchabag fake crip came into my life recently. he proved to me that some people on this earth purely suck. hes been shooting white into MY FRIENDS veins. i tried to save him but that didnt work, now i have my friends to worry about. im really scared for melissa. and all i want to do is kill this kid. kiiiilll. if i ( Read more... )

I SEE RIGHT THROUGH YOU. TO THE POINT WHERE I CANT ASSOCIATE MYSELF WITH ANY OF YOU BECAUSE I GET SO FRUSTRATED. MAYBE IM STUBBORN BUT AT LEAST IM NOT TRANSPARENT. FUCK. I CANT WAIT TO GET TO SEAFIELD AND SCREAM A BIG FUCK YOU TO MY PAST ALONG WITH ALL WHO WERE IN IT. ALL YOU WAX-WINGED MOTHERFUCKERS, I DARE YOU TO GET OUT OF THE DARK. I MUST BE ( Read more... )

im a better person than this. i dont deserve to die from lung cancer cus i was fucking smoking rock when i was 16. this is NOT me.chris signed himself into rehab. i think that has to be the best thing thats ever happened in our lives ( Read more... )

i fuckin love my brotherman he just liek came in my room adn was like were smokign a blnt and i didnt beleive him at first iw as liek what? and he held out this FAT ass blunt so i thoguht it was a cigar and i as liek what and he was like i found a huge bag of weed in my room from last night cus last night anglehart and garb and mad ppl were here ( Read more... )

i love amanda. so much. you dont even know.

Ticking away the moments that make up a dull day ( Read more... )

i hate the fact that ive preffered physical attention over the real thing.
i hate looking for what ive already found.
love isnt something that goes away once you say "i hate you."
and love
is worth the wait.

AHH BY THE WAY I GOT NEW GLASSES IM GONNA GO WEAR THEMM