I'm sitting here with so much going through my mind that I cant even begin to describe my bleak emotions, so instead of sitting at this piece of fuck computer staring blankly at the screen, I decided to start writing anything at all with hopes that something that needs to be said will come out. So far, nothing. But I guess you knew that already. I ( Read more... )

So here is an update (mostly for mom, cuz I cant get ahold of you). Scince I've been been back things have been a rolercoaster. Well Loren had two options, 1. either he gets a dollar raise or he gets put on salary for $400.00 a week, scince work slows down in the winter that extra dollar wont mean a whole lot so I told him to just go ahead and go ( Read more... )

.....where feelings mean nothing, now all those feelings, those yesterdays feelings will all be lost in time. But today, I'v wasted away, for today is on my mind ( Read more... )

I do. I just need some time to sit a think. Everything has been so chaotic latley. Well, on a lighter note(on Tosha's part anyway) Steve is getting ready to leave Marcy (or so we think) and Tish is planning her "wedding" to Steve. Talk about counting your chickens! So we'll see how things go. Whatever Ernest said to Loren the other day on the phone ( Read more... )

Im so tired. So sick of trying. Why bother. Why even try to do anything, It all means nothing. Fuck it. I'm just going to be. If I can even do that anymore. I wish it could change. I want it fix me.

I'm getting sick of playing the waiting game. I'm not going to divulge too much info cuz that my business and not yours. But lets just say he has untill my 18th birthday to file the papers or nothing can keep me here, not even this ring, this false hope, this "oh so promising" commitment. I dont know if I mean that. I'm hoping it doesn't come to ( Read more... )

I have a new cell phone with the internet on it! I feel so cool! so txt me or talk to me on yahoo messenger 1-505-312-0453.

So mom is moving to texas in less than a week. The up side, That means we get the house and we havent even started packing yet. How lame huh? Well, we have 2 extra bedrooms that we are thing of renting out so we can get some help with the bills. Know anyone whos interested? Guess not. Mom, Mike and E went to Tucson today to say bye to the 'rents ( Read more... )

I sit here in this empty room wondering "why am I alone?" Could it be that I am just not ment to live with anyone other than myself and my stirring thoughts? Maybe....or maybe it's because I dont know when enough is enough ( Read more... )

Hello everyone, have'nt written in here in a while. Let me start off by saying happy holidays and tell you how mine has gone so far. Loren, Tish, Steve and I did x-mas today cuz everyone is going to their fam's house tomrrow, I got a new watch, a Futurama DVD set, pants and a new celly! I got Loren a leather jacket a watch, t-shirt and a ( Read more... )