LJ Idol 10: Where I Am Now

[xo_kizzy_xo]

I've been living in a a local hotel while my kitchen floor, victim of a longstanding undetected leak, is being replaced. If I remain here into next week, it will be just shy of a month since I slept in my own bed, watched Netflix, cooked from scratch. The dogs are with my husband, whose job is in a neighboring state 4 hours away. My work

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[penpusher]

Quietly poignant in the way that One Flew Over the Cuckoo's Nest was. It also sounds like a documentary film waiting to happen, if it didn't get someone killed.

[xo_kizzy_xo]

I like that, "documentary". On a particular level I do feel like I'm an investigative reporter because I'm obviously one of a handful who aren't part of *the group*, so to speak. I'm also one of, if not the only "semi long term" guest who isn't part of *the group*.

P is the only one who's visible. The rest of them scatter like cockroaches most of the time. I imagine fear plays a huge role in that.

[morettaallstar]

Crossing fingers and toes for you to be home soon! It's difficult to be so far away (and yet so close) for so long!

[xo_kizzy_xo]

They'll be finished late this coming Saturday. The walkthrough is Monday. I'm staying here through the weekend because my work schedule isn't conducive to my checking out :p

[texasts]

Holy crap! Some folks will just tell a perfect stranger there life's story.

Makes for a good entry to LJ Idol though. I guess. I used to follow that comm, as I knew a few folk that submitted entries on a regular basis.

[xo_kizzy_xo]

That's what struck me, too. I've run across a lot of hard luck/disturbed people who, for some reason, feel comfortable spilling their guts to me. It leaves me in a quandry because I have no way of helping them, yet I'm compelled to listen because it's obvious they need somebody to listen. My empathy for them got me into a crapload of trouble when I was younger. Nowadays I'll cut myself short (like I did with P) when things get too intense. Self-preservation and all that.

LOL, I've been playing Idol for at least 10 years? I'm one of the *old* vets there.

[halfshellvenus]

As tedious and obnoxious your reasons are for staying in that hotel, that conversation sure gives you perspective on how much worse things could be... and how incredibly valuable a safety-net like that (even like Craig) is for people who really need it.

Being in that woman's position, stuck in limbo until she can make enough money to flee the state and always with fear not far away, would be so hard. All of her worries are justified.

And it sounds as if she has a lot of company there, other women in tough situations.

[xo_kizzy_xo]

That limbo is a by-product of The System. I don't know the laws, of course, but the gist I got from P is that once a woman enters it, she and her kids, if applicable, are shuttled around from hotel to hotel so whoever's abusing her/them won't find them. Many times they're shuttled out the immediate area to create distance. Her fear, though, is still so palpable IRL that it rendered me speechless, and it's completely justified.

As tedious as this stay has been for me, I still cannot imagine what it must be like to live like this over the long haul. Still, if I were in her shoes, I'd be grateful beyond belief that I was safe and had a roof over my head.

I wonder a lot about the kids. I don't see any of them very often, but when I do they're quick to run the other way. There isn't a lot for them to do here, unfortunately.

[magazhchi]

Wow! That was an interesting conversation. Hope you'll be back home soon though.

[xo_kizzy_xo]

I'm moving back in on Monday!!!!!!!!!!!