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[xo_natti]

I feel like I can't keep a conversation for more than 5 minutes with anyone. I'm finding that I have less and less in common with the people around me, and it's really beginning to suck. I'm drifting away from a lot of my friends, and so much has just gone on this weeknd that I'm in a total state of confusion.

I really need someone to talk to,

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[fabul0uz]

SO. im thinking that whatever you chose about the whole moving thing will be the right one. it would be nice realif to move to SD but then just think, if you are still whatever-ed over Andrew- you would have to see him everyday &if he doesnt feel the same for you, you'll see him with other girls. which sucks. but staying here could open the options for those 2 potentials. &online isnt the best place to talk, some people are doing other stuff etc. so use the phone if you are up to it.

LOVE YOU ALOT &we are so much alike its scary cause im confused in everything (mostly friends &etc.) tambien <33

[xo_natti]

I know what you mean about Andrew, and I've been considering that. It's just so insane how like... I don't even know. I just think that if I did decide to move, I'd probably be over him by then, because I would've already been put in situations where I'd have to see him (over Xmas/Spring Break) and I'd be used to it. We'll see how vacation goes though and how well I fit into their crowd. ♥

[anonymous]

the whole guy situation..i know EXACTLY how you are feeling. im dealing with the same problem! i guess some guys just dont know HOW to act online...i dont know?

i know we've never really been close at all..but this year it seems like you dont even want to be aquatinces [i have NO idea how to spell that word! lol] like whenever i see you in school we hardly acknowledge the fact that we even know each other..i dont know maybe you just dont like me anymore? i dont know i just wish we could be better friends.

♥♥ courtney

[xo_natti]

You're right about one thing. We never really were very close. Except in 6th grade: Language Arts, 3rd period, Ms. Zoeller. Remember?

The thing is, I've always gotten this vibe that you didn't like me, and I've (for whatever reason) been under the impression that you're better than me.

I really wish we could be better friends too, but some people your friends with don't really like me (or at least I have a feeling). But I do really want to become closer with you Court, and I have for a really long time. ♥

[xo_natti]

Didn't you post this exact comment on another one of my entries? Maybe you didn't get my response, but I said something along the lines of...

Yeah, we've never been really that close, except in 6th grade (Haha! 3rd period Zoeller). After that things just kind of faded away between you and I, but it's NOT that I don't like you. Actually, I used to think you didn't like me, but now I know that's not the case. I really would like to become closer to you (again) Court, so I guess it's just something we both need to work on. =)♥

[x0caroline23]

wow, i feel the same way about so much of that.
i cant keep cpnversations with people anymore, im drifting away from so many of my friends,i really want a guy & i like one from another school, but those relationships dont seem to work. and if i had somewhere to move to right now, i probably would (not that im saying you should)
i really wish i could help you & give you advice, but im in the same situation and dont even know what to tell myself.
but i love you so much and i hope everything works out. ♥

[xo_natti]

Katie Jeronimus was telling me about how you two are thinking of switching to Estero, and I want you to know that if you switched, nothing would keep us from hanging out. Because we have so much in common and we share the same birthdays, so nothing could keep us apart. But I love you Caroline and I'm here if you need to talk =)♥

[x0caroline23]

yeah, im pretty sure im going to.
im really glad we're so close this year, & we really do have a lot in commen =] its gotta be cause of our birthdays. lol.
im also here for you if you want to talk, im pretty sure we could keep a conversation going pretty long ;] lol i love you soo much and i seriously cant wait until the concert!! ♥

[dan_to_the_yell]

i know your mad at me in all, but i thin you need all the input you can get. If one of the reaosns your moving is to be closer to Andrew, then I think you need to talk to him first because moving for him would be a waste if he doesnt feel the same. But if that's not why...then i think i would consider alll the options. i mean whose house do you have more fun at? and do you think you and your dad will get closer if you move. and is closer to your dad what you WANT?? well i have no clue if i even helped with all that ^^ but thats what i would do i guess.

[xo_natti]

Thanks. You did help some.
And I'm not moving to be closer with Andrew. That's not it at all. He and I are over with, feelings or no feelings, and I refuse to ever go back to that.

But I know you didn't tell Kelsey. But apparently you told someone. Whoever you share lockers with? Like, Haley Odonovan or something? Anyways. She ended up finding out, and she said she indirectly found out from you. So whatever. The whole thing just cause a bunch of shit, and a lot of people think that I'm the only one who did it and whatever.

♥

[dan_to_the_yell]

no no no no no. i was talking about how eddies house got Tp'd and they were like omg omg omg who did it. i was like oh its no big deal, natalie did, but they have like this back and forth thing going so its ok. and they were like natalie the freshman and i was like yea why. and they were like is she friends with kelsey swope. and i was like i think so. so then they looked at eachother and were like well her house got tp'd that night too and i was like, i doubt they r related, cause there were a lot. and she goes...w/e someone did it. and i walked away. and i heard her go find out, cause her parents are pissed, but i acted like i couldnt hear her. and havent talked to her since.

[xo_natti]

Easier said than done, Jon.
For you at least.
Trust me when I say I'm trying.
But in case you weren't paying attention, I said I wasn't yet ready for a relationship.
So am I just going to sit around being prude until I am ready for one?
Ahhh yeah, I don't think so. =)