Sucked.

Today i ate a bit when my dad was home ( a biscuit ) ...kinda gross..I'm going to claim that I pigged out today while everyone was out .. so I won't have to eat tonight.Then tommorow..I can get out of eating , the same with Tuesday..but then I go to middleburg for thnx giving..(eww)So we'll see..

Here comes Thanksgiving.Oh my gawd.What am I going to do ? The play is FINALLY over .. and I'm more than ready to start fasting..and then look .. it's the enemy.( The enemy is any holiday that requires you to sit around and eat ) I

Well , soundwave started again .. that's good .. I'll be dancing now..maybe that will help my obesenes a little ( doubt it )There are these two girls in soundwave who I idolize .. seriously.Omg.They are both SoOoO perfect.Why can't I be like them? My goal is to have THEM jelous of my size. I wish !! ugh !! Lacy and Lauren.They say i'm pretty n ( Read more... )

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Like I love acting and all , but I can't wait unitl all the shows for this play are over. I need to start a fast .. but I can't .. or I might faint on stage r sumthing .. so .. yeah .. I can't wait to be able to go HOME after school for once.. !! and not have to stay after school until like 8:00 !! I'm getting SoOo incredibly fat ( Read more... )

I guess i've been really busy lately with the play I'm in..So I haven't been hard on myself like I should.I get so pissed after I eat , but I needed the energy .. Ugh! Well .. It's almost over.. Ihave to do the plays .. and then it'll be all better again.i can focus on what I need to : ana. I'm up to 108 now.I was like 103 !! UGH .. I hate myself.I ( Read more... )

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Well .. tonight I decided I'd stay home .. bcuz If I went out to this party.. I'd risk getting caught , and doing stuff with guys I don't even like.And If I got caught..I wouldnt b able to do anything tommorow .. so .. yeah . And I wanna go to this party with Kevin n Summ ppl tommorow night !! I can't wait to b drunk around Kevin. I'm gunna make ( Read more... )

Well , I'm really busy lately ... which means im eating normally.. ( overeating ) UGH !! I'm like 108 I bet ( nasty , yes I know ..)
some one make me stop !! I truely wanna .. just .. ugh