I DONT THINK I CAN READ MY OLD POST ANYMORE. I FEEL TOO MUCH EMOTION FROM THEM, AND I SUPPOSE THIS WAS AN OUTLET FOR MY EMOTIONS THAT I COULDN'T SPEAK TO ANYONE ABOUT. I DIDN'T USUALLY GIVE OUT THE LINK TO THIS JOURNAL. IT WAS LIKE MY OWN WORLD OF EXPRESSION BUT STILL KNOWING IT IS PUBLIC. I FEEL SORRY FOR MYSELF WHEN I SEE HOW MEAN I REFERRED TO ( Read more... )

Hey there: It has been such a long time since i had even thought of this website being available. I have grown up very much and I will be turning 23 this December. It is 2012 and my daughter is 4 years old now; She is also in school, and she has grown up a lot, too :-) Sparky is still alive. But, my grandfather, ULY, passed away on January 5th, ( Read more... )

RIP <3

i cannot believe you decided to take your life last night,
we were having so much fun.. you seemed happy to me.
whatever happened, it was fucked up & you're so missed.
We love you and hope to see you in Heaven someday!
i hope alan sees this as a sign he needs to stop doing coke.

RIP Nathan Roberts :(

ALL OF YOU ARE
~ Wicked fake.
~ Wicked judgmental....
&& a definitely hypocrites.
Practice safe sex,
+
Go Fuck Yourself.

:)

MY DAUGHTER IS THE BEST PERSON TO EVER COME INTO MY LIFE. MY MOST IMPORTANT RESPONSIBILITY, AND THE ONE THING THAT MAKES ME TRULY HAPPY INSIDE.. SHE IS THE HARDEST STRUGGLE I HAVE HAD, THE MOST ANXIETY-CAUSING ASPECT OF MY LIFE, THE ONE PERSON WHO I CAN LEARN FROM CONSTANTLY & WHO HAS MADE ME STRONG IN WAYS I DIDN'T KNOW EXISTED. SHE IS THE ONLY ( Read more... )

I'm sick of having friends who are older than me, that tell me to grow up, and they're the ones who act like a five year old... Chelsea is pissing me off to no end. She is ONLY my friend because she can't figure out why Alan loves me so much more than her, and she only uses me to check up on him. She's not my real friend, she always goes on FB and ( Read more... )

Today i feel very positive.
Yesterday i felt very religious.
The day before that, i felt like crying.
The day before that, i felt like dying.
All of these days i was high at one time.
or all times.

i should shut the fuck up sometimes. i am so disappointing.

Life sucks. Shit happens. It fucking sucks most of the time. Everyone is an asshole. things are not always what they seem, and fuck that.

you popped my heart seams;
all my bubble dreams* bubble dreams..
[hes gonna get you and after hes thru,]
[theres gonna be no LOVE left to rise]
&& i kno that its complicated;
but i been losing my love..
so baby - raise a glass for all the
i'll never talk again.
i'll never love again.
oh boy, you've left me
Speechless.