paul signed up for the army, officially. He's in for 6 years and he leaves January 19th. He's going to be a helicopter repairer and its a special sort of helicopter but i forget what it's called. i'm okay w/ everything for the most part. it's just that he leaves so soon and hes going to be gone for so long. i know this is the best thing for him ( Read more... )

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so i went w/ paul to the recruiter today and he's going to sign up/ swear in tomorrow. i guess ill know more of what is going on then :\

so i found out today that paul is leaving on the 27th, of december. i dont know what i'm going to do without him he means the world to me. i knew it was coming but it was just sooner than i expected and its just killing me.

we dont even get new years eve together.

i love how people respond and treat you when you're upset. everyone was ever so nice today...

things are better :)

i had kimmy over last night and this afternoon and tonight. It was a lot of fun. I'm glad we got to catch up w/ each other...i had missed her

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i dont know. i have a lot of homework to do today. and i want to see paul, so i should go get some of it done.... ick. anyway. i need to run more and my birthday is in 8 days :) thats all.

i have oodles of homework to do this weekend. and my sickness is making a comeback today. i have 55 problems left in calc, 60 problems for chem, 2 papers and 4 paragraphs for lit and also bible research and speech for lit. just kill me now.

yesterday was regionals for xc and my last high school xc race ever. it was rather depressing not having to do a cool down :( but i PRed and ran 22:15 which was good, but i was hoping to break 22. eh. ill keep training. i went to a movie w/ paul yesterday for the first time in like 3 months. it was fun. friday i went to paul's friend paul's ( Read more... )

disregard every happy thought in that last entry.

"then just pretend like everything is fine"
like that's even possible.