what's more important? making myself happy or making those around me happy?
it's my life and i should live it the way i see fit. it kills me to displease people though.
the one opinion that has slowly become the most important opinion in my life doesn't approve of you and i don't know what to do. i had so much fun in that short amount of time we had ( Read more... )

 why can't i please you?
i try everything in my power to please you and to make you proud but nothing is ever good enough. when i overachieve, you bother me about living the college life and enjoying the proper experience. when i do nothing, you pester me about possible expenses. i really just can't win. it kills me that i try and i try and you ( Read more... )

 im so sick and tired of being sick and tired. why can't people just be truthful? why can't they fulfill your expectations?
maybe i gave you too much credit. maybe i give people in general too much credit. 
all i know is i wouldn't make the same choices you do. i direct that statement to more than one person.
i just don't want to feel this way. i feel ( Read more... )

dear ____,
its not fair. you don't deserve the things they're saying to you. for whatever reason, he doesn't understand what you're going through. the depression you're experiencing will pass if you let it pass. ignore the words and carry on with your life the way you want to. im always here for you to talk to even though you won't ever read this. i ( Read more... )

i feel as though my life is flying by me. this particular summer, i am wasting my time working two jobs in attempts to make money and make certain people proud, including myself. i work my butt off every day, every week, every hour in order to achieve specific goals i've set for myself. i've never felt so determined in my life to reach something. ( Read more... )

i feel so alone sometimes. i don't even know why. i'm surrounded by people, by friends, by acquaintances, by things, by opportunities, and by boredom. i miss some people, one friend especially. i miss my family. i made the quick decision to stay here over summer for multiple reasons and now i'm somewhat regretting it. i just feel like things are ( Read more... )

 can you help me unravel my latest mistake?

i can't seem to get away from disappointment. something always has to go wrong and i seem to never feel content with the way things are going. as i enter one of the busiest and most stressful times of the school year, i can't tear my mind away from a boy and the situation i am in with him. im at a loss. i ( Read more... )

 in this exact moment, a sadness is consuming me. listening to young alex lambert's voice sing a simple song is enough to evoke emotion from me. i guess i can consider myself lucky in that i don't really care about you all that much but you still managed to hurt me when i thought it was impossible for you to do so. you proved me wrong.

it gets ( Read more... )

 ugh i feel soooo up and down, back and forth, ass backwards. there are just so many things i want to do with my life and things i don't want to get caught up in. i want to have fun but sometimes i feel like i party too much and i lose control over what i really want in life. instant gratification takes over my feelings. i get lost in this drunken ( Read more... )

 i feel so empty. somehow something has been taken away from me and i don't even know what that something is. i was so excited for you to come and now im stuck feeling like i do. it was just a waste of time and i knew that from the get but still. i guess i just thought it would be different. you're a cool / good guy but ill never do it again. i ( Read more... )