My fourth was pretty amazing! Monday night we had a party at our house. I came at like 8 after work and the party had just started. We shot off tons of fireworks and went swimming at way to late of a night. We drank alot of beverages and the cops finally came. What would you expect? The night was amazing but I didn't get to bed until around 3. At 8 ( Read more... )

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I finally cried tonight. For so long I've been holding in tears when I think of Tyler. But tonight I couldn't anymore. We went the movies, just us two. On our way home we were talking and laughing and I just started crying. I tried hard to hold them back. To not show how upset I was. I couldn't even get words out through the tears. I'm going to ( Read more... )

Tonight I closed Bucks for the first time as a manager. It was CrAzY! Thank God Jordan stayed with me to listen to me cuss like every other word. I messed up so many times but its ok because I would just call Caroline or Matt and they would fix it. It did however take an hour and that SUCKED! But hey I'll get better I guess. I work pretty much ( Read more... )

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All the things I want to do before I die...

1. Scuba Dive with sharks
2. Sky Dive... more then once
3. Learn how to snow board
4. Bungy Jump... spring break anyone?
5. Fall in love, again
6. Learn to speak another language
7. Travel to different countries (3 down)
8. Make a difference in someones life

So its offical. I am graduated, finally. I took a week long trip to the beach. It was the most amazing week of my life. I was in beautiful sand, listening to beautiful waves and spending time with amazing friends. I don't think any senior trip could've been as amazing as mine. Now I am working and thinking about college. I really really want to go ( Read more... )

It's offical I've had 4 panic attacks in 2 months ( Read more... )

I've offically had four panic attacks now over 2 months ( Read more... )

I'm not happy anymore.
I don't even know why.
There's nothing I can do to make myself happy
I'm angery all the time
and I'm sad all the time
and I cry for no reason at all
I should be happy
I'm graduating
but I'm still not happy
I'm not sad... just not happy
I think I'm going crazy.