LAYER ONE: ON THE OUTSIDE ( Read more... )

Im not in love

You know its not love

To me it looks so pretty burning

the past few days have been no fun. im so unsatisfied at the end of the day... its wierd, i feel like im wasting time looking forward to something thats probably just going to leave me feeling so empty. im not afraid of being alone because ive prepared myself for it.. but i just dont want to know that i could have been happy and let it go. it's ( Read more... )

this is the part where you start to let me go
and i start to lose control

Now watch the waves eat me
Setting my cold heart free
I'll wash ashore in weeks
You can't save me now

im awake...i tried to go to sleep like 3 hours ago and i've just been laying there trippin balls for no apparent reason. i do that alot lately.. i just freak out and i feel like i have things to do or if not then i start thinking about everything and over-analyze it all. i hate the overall feeling i have at the end of the day.. it seems like my ( Read more... )

Today is me & austin's 10 months!!! I've always had this "10 months theory" that things start to go downhill from here on but it's so obvious to me that im going to love him forever... no one has ever made me as happy as he does. I feel sooooo lucky that he has put up with me this long.. and seriously we have only spent like 5 days without ( Read more... )

i cant sleeeeeeeeeep and thats stupid.
:( thats my " i wanna go to bed" face

i dont update my journal ever, and when i do its like 547 hours of bitching.. so prepare urself. Well ever since summer skool let out ive been so bored.. my days get so long because i dont sleep anymore and i feel like im just waiting for something. Everyday i wake up i feel the same and i hate that... the only time that im completely content with ( Read more... )

i wish i was #1 to anyone

i wish you didn't fall asleep dreaming of someone else

i feel like my days get longer all the time ( Read more... )