registering for classes tomorrow. hopefully i get into the ones i need ( Read more... )

quick update:
school is pretty good. midterm grades came back. they were good.
i'm so excited for this weekend. i cant wait to see john and ed.
and ashley and myself are going to the fall play at uc.
it should be fun.
aside from that, my life is pretty uneventful.
i'm happy. i like it. the end.

fall break is fantastic. i missed my parents a lot. and have had a lot of time to see them and managed to see my grandparents even though its been a pretty hectic last few days ( Read more... )

good mood. i'm really happy. and i really am appreciating the people who are happy for me. and my parents are the best. really. i have never felt so supported in my entire life. happyhappyhappy.

and becky is coming here tomorrow =) and then six flags! i really hope ricky and lucy arent there again.

i havent written in this in a month. so i figure its as good a time as any to let you know how i am ( Read more... )

3 days. that's all i have left before i leave for college. i'd like to say i'm prepared, but i know i'm not. i have to read over half of my summer reading, do an essay, pack, and worst of all, say good bye to the people i really love and trust in life. i said my first REAL goodbye tonight to john ed and sean. it killed me. i couldnt hold anything ( Read more... )

it's been a really long time since i've used this thing. it's summer, i love it. i hardly spend anytime at home, i love my friends, they keep me sane. i'm looking forward to everything. orientation, the bahamas, concerts, polish day!/ poppi's birthday, disney with erica, moving into college, starting classes, meeting new people. i'm a little ( Read more... )

indecisive people can s my d. i'm so sick of hearing that someone is confused. and i'm sick of being second best. i would like for one thing to work out in my favor for a change. but apparently i'm asking too much. even work is starting to wear me thin at this point. i'm being promoted to server soon, which means more money. it also means more ( Read more... )

i hate life. a lot.

i hate car accidents.

i hate having to pay 2000 dollars because i'm a fucking moron

i hate disappointing my parents.

i hate being called a disappointment.

i hate working a double shift.

i hate the fact that i am going to have to work A LOT more.

i hate that i always find a way to fuck up my life.

i hate myself.

i feel as if i have hit my lowest point in a really long time. i dont know what to do. everything blows up in my face. i am not a good student, a good worker, or a good friend. i've ruined absolutely everything good that has come way. i dont believe in anything anymore, not god, not love, not even myself. granted i havent believed in god in a very ( Read more... )