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xordinarymachin

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Jun 06, 2007 22:30

There is hope for me yet. I am just going to start exercising more and praying my heart out. I don't know who to pray to, because a God of my understanding has slipped from my grasp, and has been replaced with the awe-inspiring infinity of nature and my surroundings. I am captivated by moments of silence, brief, lapsing, or elongated and ( Read more... )

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Xnay, Xnay.. igosm June 7 2007, 12:59:40 UTC

Xnay on the arijuanamay! Worse than making you fat also makes you stupid.

Re: Xnay, Xnay.. xordinarymachin June 7 2007, 14:37:41 UTC

well chica, you talked about dependency and you probably hit the nail right on the head. I have been smoking 'arijuanamay' for every day for over a 2 years. It's in my home, it's in all my friends' homes, it's everywhere, and most of the time, I don't say no.

Re: Xnay, Xnay.. igosm June 7 2007, 18:36:32 UTC

How does it get home with you? Do you bring it? You should try to figure out how to at least slow down (hopefully stop) it makes it very difficult to be abstinent, This is radical. It involves separation from your friends and SO (or Insignificant O) and perhaps the parents. Are you going to college. (Away) you can go there and be who you want to be. arijuanamay is something I got off of. You only think about it every day for a month and then after that only when reminded. No one would judge you for saying no because you are on a diet. And you get the contact high anyway. And maybe your head will clear enough to follow through on taking care of yourself, eh? If you smoke daily, you are never sober, You don't remember what sober is like anymore. Think of it as an experiment, in order to find out what sober is like. After all this time you may like it! I might have laughed at someone who suggested such an outrageous thing when I was young. I hope you will considder this.

M

Very honest blog... igosm June 7 2007, 13:00:40 UTC

Go to OA and listen to those folks. Tell me if they sound like me. Hopefully less judgemental.

ill_onlyflyaway June 7 2007, 13:57:45 UTC

I love you and don't worry, you and me? we're gonna make it just fine baby.

xordinarymachin June 7 2007, 14:36:21 UTC

lol @ your display pic

ill_onlyflyaway June 7 2007, 15:31:36 UTC

MWAH!