if you read, you'll judge

[xordinarymachin]

I found myself today, after an Al-anon meeting, in the RVMC bathroom, crying with my knees pulled into my chest

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<3 you.

[ill_onlyflyaway]

Trust me, I won't judge. I am in no position to judge anyone.

But listen, it seems to happen to the best of us. I feel your pain, in fact probably better than you ever will know.

however, I say we reject feeling shitty/unloved, and be ego maniacs. I'd rather love myself too much, than too little. Because truth be told, I'm not so sure anyone else will. Truly. because love is commercialistic idealism. bullshit propaghanda spilling over movies with meg ryan. fuck the lot, lets just rule the world. We are queens, and loneliness is the human condition, let no one else tell you otherwise!!!

Re: <3 you.

[xordinarymachin]

I <3 you too. I want to trust you, so I will. I have no evidence to the contrary.

[ill_onlyflyaway]

um um, also, diet with me! I mean, eat healthy with me? give me support! and trust in me!

Re: <3 you.

[xordinarymachin]

only if it is really eating healthy. I have been doing great the last 2 days and want to continue. If we eat, we won't binge. If we eat, we'll be less depressed. Actually... not bingeing has made me more depressed, but it's just because the toxins are finally coming out of my body... I will only eat healthy and fast, no restricting.

Re: <3 you.

[ill_onlyflyaway]

good! I've decided to eat really small amounts today and tommorow, because I want to cleanse my system and stop myself from this mindless eating routine. But afterwords its going to be totally healthy, not starving at all. because I know thats counter productive and only makes you gain more weight. Okay, lets do this for real this time! lets be real healthy women.

Re: <3 you.

[xordinarymachin]

finally