So things are going okay with me.i've been doing alot of thinking.I really need to move out of this place.I hate it here.The neighbors are loud, the windows are dangerous for my children, there is no yard, to many steps,to damn hot.And a few other reasons.I've also decided that now is the time to get started on going to school.I wanted to go to ( Read more... )

So today went pretty decent.Did more cleaning :-x  Tommorrow I want to go out to the bar.I need to get tha hell outta here for a while lolz.I need to relaxxxxxxx.Damn I am sooo bored tonight.i might make it an early night.I am kind of tired:))))( I )

I figured I'd post the fire pics.It is still hard to look at though.I'm going to post Shannons obit and a pic of her first.

Shannon M. RUBY, 25, of Huntingdon, formerly of Lewistown, died Sunday,
Feb. 6, 2005. Born Dec. 6, 1979, in Cleveland, Ohio, she was the
daughter of Ronald R. Ruby Jr. of Huntingdon and Juanita Beatty of
Jacksonville, Fla. Her ( Read more... )

I've been having so many dreams about Shannon lately.I miss that girl so much.It doesn't get easier with time.=( I wish i could turn back time,and change all the times we fought.I am also greiving travis's pappy.He was such a great man.It's hard to lose people.I hate it.Knowing I will never get to see them or talk to them again.And I hate living in ( Read more... )

I am so tired of being sad, but I am also tired of being pent up in this damn apartment.I hate it here.It is to damn hot, it is right in the middle of town.GRRRRRRRRRRR I want to be in the country.I am still trying so damn hard to move on after the fire but I don't even know why I keep trying, because it isn't working.Then there are some assholes ( Read more... )

So I haven't updated this thing in a lonnnnng time.things are going pretty good.I met a guy that I really really Like.I realy want to be happy,and i smile alot when i am around him..I like going out, and being around my friends.I feel no stress when I am out.I still think about Shannon alot, and miss her every single day.I need to move on, but that ( Read more... )

You know i was just going through my Yahoo archives and I found something that Shannon said to me a few days before she died and it made me smile:

leslie_eckley2000 (8:59:23 AM): :-)
xshanx^^^ (9:00:31 AM): i wuv u leslie.... ur my bestest friend

heres another convo with her:

xshanx^^^ (5:06:49 PM): no one loves me
leslie_eckley2000 (5:07:12 ( Read more... )

So, it has been a while since I updated this thing.I am going to be completely honest and vent right now.I am so depressed, it feels like everything has fallen apart since the fire.I am still in denial.I just feel like my world is so messed up.I want things back the way they were when my life was normal.And I miss her, I miss her so much.I think ( Read more... )

Bold the ones that apply.

I've Never Smoked Pot
I've Never Kissed A Member Of The Opposite Sex
I've Never Kissed A Member Of The Same Sex
I've Never Crashed A Friend's Car
I've Never Been ToJapan
I've Never Been In A Taxi
I've never been in love
I've Never Had Sex In Public
I've Never Been Dumped
I've Never Done Cocaine
I've Never Shoplifted
I've Never Been ( Read more... )

It feels like forever since I've been on here..Alot has happened..I guess I can start with February 4 The day of the Mardi Gras Party..We (me and shannon) went to pick up decorations and decorated the place so nice..partied our tails off til six am...It was great..Then the next day I went to her house for a while to visit..I didnt have any clue it ( Read more... )