I sit here and claim that I know the explainations to everything and I always know what is best for myself. But really, I dont. I've been pushing away those who have truely cared for me and have been clinging to the ones who never really gave a shit in the first place, due to the fear and pain of rejection and dissapointment. But in reality, ( Read more... )

Maybe things are finally taking a turn for the...better?

Or have i spoken too soon??

It's time for a change, and this time I'm willing to accept whatever it is

( i think )

-after ( Read more... )

Well...

...you have managed to do it to me once again...congratulations, I fell for your trap as I have several times in the past, I hope your satisfied now, it would be easy for me to say that enough is enough and I'm done with the games, but we all now by now that I can't resist the chance that everything between you and I might fall into place ( Read more... )

I don't even know what to say, and I really have no clue why I'm updating this, because all I basically have to say has been said a million times before...

Come here, please hold my hand for now
Help me, I'm scared please show me how to fight this,
God has a master plan
And I guess
I am in his demand
Please save me this time I cannot run
And I'll ( Read more... )

So...Let's see, how have I been...?

Well lets just say, I'm stuck in a house I hate, with people that I hate, for a looooong time...you figure it out...

Oh and just a lil advice for everyone, don't trust or depend on ANYONE, even the ones you think you can or that you should be able to, because they are the ones that will let you down the most

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I NEED A FUCKIN BREAK!!!

Just to list a few:

...I'm so fuckin sick of the lies, the fighting, the bullshit people around here, how everything is changing and most of all I'm sick of  feeling like this all the time..I miss the way things were before, I miss my friends, but I especially miss *him*, even after all this time and after everything that ( Read more... )

I'm in such a bad mood right now and I have no idea why...I've just been thinking alot lately...scary isn't it?

I was going through my old livejournal entries and I was reading one of the many super long quizzes that I put in here. It really made me start to think when I read the part about my friends and how now basically all the people I listed I ( Read more... )

n f o r m a t i o n ( Read more... )

All I can do is sit here and watch as everything that once seemed almost perfect, all get messed up once again

....and the only one to blame is myself....

I want my dog back, he was the greatest and nothing will EVER be able to replace him :(

RIP Cuddles

January 12th 2004

...I miss you...