I need to start standing up for myself more.
I want all my friends back.
I want some sort of semblance of the life I had before back
and I want him, all wrapped up in one.
I feel like I just keep bending and bending, and smoothing down all my rough edges.
I'm a tree trunk with no branches
I'm so afraid to upset him, to push too hard
in case it all

Valentine's Day was awesome. Josh and I ordered pizza, drank champagne and listened to Marvin Gay Live. I love him so much.

So I thought I had the flu, or strep throat, but after going to the doctor, turns out I have neither. I do have a sinus infection. This is one hell of a horrendus (sp?) sinus infection if you ask me. blah.

hmm... interesting

So, I think I almost died yesterday. I was on the interstate right before you get on the bridge (going east) and this car just decides to come into my lane. Not just like into my lane, but into my lane, in the exact same spot as me. So I swerved onto the very small shoulder, but couldn't get back on the road, because he was there and just didn't ( Read more... )

Oman, so I got a wax kit last night. Ow. It was quite an experience to say the least. I put the strip on and didn't have the balls to pull it off. Josh on the other hand does have balls, so I asked him to pull it off. He was all "I don't want your punanny mad at me!" "Punanny?" "Well, yea, iuno that's just the first appropriate term that ( Read more... )

So, we're finally settled in our own place out in Rosedale. I've got my dishes and matching towels and everything. Super Cool. Some people dropped off two dogs in my grandparents neighborhood. I had thought that they belonged to the boys across the street. So I went banging on their door, ready to bitch at em cause the dogs were just running ( Read more... )

These last few weeks of school really have me stressed out. At first everything was fine, a very laid back schedule and good grades, yanno, so i thought that i would be able to add a job to it. that has not been my brightest idea. i'm the hostest at koto's on college and while the job isn't hard at all, i guess the added weight is. maybe its ( Read more... )

Last Wednesday I got in a wreck. I was comming home from my night psyc class and at the corner, by Pastimes, some guy ran a red light and hit my driver side door. I'm fine, but my poor little truck is not. I don't think it's totaled but since they're dealing with an insurance company from Florida they haven't even looked at it yet. I had just ( Read more... )

everybody was all "you cant do in college what you did in high school" psht, bullshit, watch me. i'm doing so much better in college than i did in high school. when i freak out, i make great grades. seriously, 98's and shit ( Read more... )

i went to the doctor today, and scheduled surgery for july 18th. i dont like the idea of someone looking around and playing with my insides. dad called me and asked if he could go with, which was pretty cool. i like this new concept... he speaks to me now. never knew you're there, until you're gone. i believe that applies to quite a few ( Read more... )